On My Shoulder

All around the world
All around the world
someone needs somebody
let it be a shield
all around the world
All around the world
someone’s feeling lonely
but I know you never will

It was half past 11 in the evening. I was looking out the window trying to see his car pull up the drive. Ok he wasn’t due for another hour but a girl can hope can’t she.

I guess I better get you all up to speed. I am dating a guy who is one of the most famous men in the world. His name is . He is in a pop group called Westlife. I have only known him 2 years but it was love at first sight.
couldn’t get over the fact that I was the only girl he had ever meet to keep him on his toes he could just about keep up with me.
We had meet in the Carlton café my best mate had just got a job in there as her mum was best friends with Mae ’s mum. It’s a little confusing isn’t it?
He is always in the papers being linked to every girl in the biz, but I got used to it. I was the girl he was coming home too not no one else.

We hide it off course. Saying I am ’s cousin. Everyone believes us. I’m glad no one knows about us but yet I want everyone to know.

I need a drink.

Cause when it all gets too much
Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
Now I don’t know the things that your going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Where the storm is it blows ova
I know your there for me too
No Ill be there for you

I sit back down at the window to see his car pull up. I jump up and bloody spill coffee over my top. I run to the bedroom to quickly change. I so don’t know what to wear. I decided on jeans, trainers and a little vest top saying “ Bored of the Beckhams” which was a total lie I loved them. In a way they are my idols.

I hear start to open the door. I run into the living room and dive onto the couch and put my Walkman on. Just before I see walk into the room.
I lay on the couch waiting for him to come in but he didn’t. I turn off my Walkman and listen but still nothing. So I decide to get up.
I open the bedroom door and see sitting on the bed. I walk over to him and kneel in front of him putting my hand s on his knees. I could see that something was up. “ Hey, you.” I said, “ What’s up” looked up his eyes look sad, hurt confused. “ “ I want to break up.”

Your waiting for a change
Your waiting for the day
When all that you remember is with you once again
There’s a long road ahead
Stretches out for miles
And if u want some company
Walk with me a while
Ohh and when the road gets too rough

I could feel my heart stop, I couldn’t breath. I fell back onto the floor. I could feel the tears in my eyes. Why did he want to break up I didn’t understand I thought we were going great, maybe that was the problem I thought it was going great but maybe it wasn’t you hear how one person is so caught up in themselves and what they feel they forget the other person. I just hoped I didn’t do that I wouldn’t would I?

“ What do you mean? I managed to get out. “ We have to break up.” I looked at him sharply god if looks could kill. “ We have to break up well what if I don’t want to? “
“I don’t care what you want we are finished final good bye I’ll take my stuff now and I’ll be gone. I’m ok with us still talking but that’s it.” said getting up from the bed and collecting his stuff.

I was speechless. I couldn’t believe what he was saying it was so not . Yeah he was Mr. grumpy but this went beyond that. I left him to sort his self out. I wanted him to think he was getting away with leaving. But the way he just spoke to me I wanted him to go.

I went into the living room and got my phone. I opened the street door and stood outside making sure I didn’t shut it too loudly.

I called my mate . She answered after two rings. I didn’t let her even get a hello in before I jumped down her throat.“ What the heck is going on, has just got back and has dumped me. He is saying we have to break up. Why what the heck is going on?” I demanded to know. I knew properly didn’t have a clue but I needed my best mate to make me feel ok and to make sense of it all.

“ I don’t know and what?” said at the other end of the phone. “ has broken up with me?” I said back.
“. I am so sorry Hun do you want me to come round or something?” I hanged up the up the phone. didn’t know but would the other guys I thought about calling them but thought I better not. I also made a point to make sure to called later to say sorry for just hanging up.

I went back in to the house and into the bedroom. “Ok are you going to tell me what the heck is going on. “? I said to . He turned round to face me.
“Fine we are breaking up cause Simon knows we are dating and have done for the past 2 years. He is making me date from crapieoaks.”

Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
Now I don’t know the things that your going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Where the storm is it blows ova
I know your there for me too
No Ill be there for you

“Like hell I’m going to let Simon tell me what to do. I love you. I’ve never said that before to anyone but I love you more than anything. If that is what you want then fine but I’m not going anywhere. Even if you decide that Simon can go to hell and you want to carry on with this cause I feel it’s going somewhere that’s not dump land. If you don’t want to carry on or need time to think about it then go. I’m not going to stop you. OK I may just hit you, but still you know me.” I said finally taking a breath. I walk over to where is standing I put my hands on his face and kiss him. My body shock it always did when kissed me.
I turned and walked out the door.

When it all. Gets too. Much...
Your waiting for a change
Your waiting for the day
When all that you remember is with you once again
There’s a long road ahead
Stretches out for miles
And if u want some company
Walk with me a while
Ohh and when the road gets too rough.

After about and two hours I got back home ’s car wasn’t there. I started to shack the thought of coming home and knowing he wasn’t there made things more real. Even when he was away on tour or promoting I knew he would come back home. But this time he wasn’t. I put the key in the door.
I walked through to the living room. I saw sitting on the couch with the TV on. He was watching Runaway bride and my favorite bit where Richard Gear gives Julia Roberts the I love you without saying I love you speech.
I smiled to myself he hadn’t gone I walked over to the couch and sat next to him. I put my head on his shoulder. put his arm around me. I felt safe, happy. I knew and so did that we would always be there for each other.

Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
Now I don’t know the things that your going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Where the storm is it blows ova
I know your there for me too
No Ill be there for you





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