Holding On To You



Chapters...: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6!!

Chapter 1


3 years on....

The new tour had kicked off and everything was getting back to normal or as normal as could be.

Walking down the hall with a guard following her tail she smiled seeing and by the end of the hall. Walking closer she heard how ever their firm tone in their discussion.
- Girls... said seeing them turn their faces towards her.
- Would you please tell that woman she can’t tell her decision before the show! asked firmly. Making ’s mind wirk over time to remember if she knew what they were talking about.
- , school aboard, remember? sighed
- Oooohh yeah, she’s right , you can’t tell him now, but you weren’t going to right? replied.
- Well why not? He is going to hear it sooner or later! sighed
- Well yeah but not this way, you can’t do that after all ya been through! said.
- I’m so tired of it I need time away to breath. explained
- We know Lou but wait ‘till after the show, promise us! said
- Fine! mumbled starring over at the two large gaurds standing not far from them.
- Their just making sure we are safe! said following her gaze.
- I know but I’m tired of it. How can you stand it? asked
- Because we have to if we want to stay with our men! replied.
- You’ll get used to it ! said.
- I was untill we got extra protection. replied.
- . sighed
- Wha? asked
- Nothing! sighed knowing all to well what meant. It could get really annoying with the gaurds following them all the time, but if it was dark and weren’t there she felt more safe with the guards close by.
- Anyway I gotta go and get Ryan so the guy’s can get ready for the show. said making snap back to reality.
Hearing laughter coming from inside the room the tree women starred inside looking at the display in front of the.
- Ryan what are you doing? asked walking over to Ryan who sat on ’s back.
- Playing with uncle ! Ryan stated.
- Well get down uncle needs his back for the concert tonight.
- But he doesn’t mind... Right ? Ryan pouted
- Hehe no it’s okay! laughed and corlapsed on the floor while Ryan fell with him making the other lads laugh from their places on the sofa.
- Sometimes I get the feling you guy’s are insane! shook her head while getting Ryan of .
- No no only some of the time! laughed making giggle.
- Really you should be careful! suddenly said making turn into a smile looking over towards her.
- We are babe. grinned sitting up on the floor reaching out his hand towards her.
- As if! grunted from the door starring at the guy’s while walked over and let pull her down on the floor to him.
- I want one too baby! said softly while nuzzling his face into her hair before kissing her neck.
- Hehe I heard that! laughed
- Heard what? asked confused.
- Hehe wants a baby! laughed
- What?? Really? spat out
- Yeah so, anything wrong with that? asked looking over at his mates.
- No no then Ryan could get a play mate grinned.
- Take it easy! said pushing to get able to sit down beside him on the sofa.
- We are babe but it would be great. said seriously.
- Yes it would! said almost in a whisper stroking his wife’s cheek with his fingers.
- Yes sweetie! replied in a whisper shyly knowing everyone where starring at them. Smiling leaned in and kissed her softly.
- Uncle , uncle ! Ryan butted in making smile pulling away sligtly from his woman before looking over at Ryan.
- Yes Ryan.
- Can’t we play it’s more fun than that! Ryan said making a face towards what was doing with .
- Hehe someday you will understand this is just as much fun. grinned
- Nooooo, we play uncle ! Ryan pouted.
- Sorry not right now! replied softly pulling closer.
- Then I’ll play with uncle ! Ryan said and started walking towards who where half asleep on a sofa chair.
- Noooo ya not! replied getting up grabbing his son.
- But.... but...
- No but’s you are gonna go with mom ‘couse ya dad and uncles has to go and do a job. - But I need a guy to play with! Ryan said annoyed.
- Then tell to hurry up and get you a play mate. laughed making Ryan confused and putting the lads in fits of laughter.
- Nevermind! said taking Ryan’s hand while sending a firm look to stop.
- Right... Let’s go.... get of your butt... yelled towards him making him come out of his daze.
- Yeah yeah! mumbled getting up slowly.
Getting up on her feet she watched get up too and nood towards Mike in the end of the room.
- he doesn’t have to follow me here I’ll be fine! sighed
- Please baby I need to know ya safe! replied with pleading eyes.
- But I’m gonna be with the other girls...
- I know but please hun..
- Fine..! she sighed
- Thank you baby! smiled softly leaning in for a kiss.
- come on...! yelled
- Yeah Yeah I’m coming! replied still looking at . Seeing his eyes gaze into her’s she felt her heart melt and leaned in placing her lips on his, just to taste him once more. Pulling away a moment later smiled.
- I gotta go hun... Giving her a last kiss he went on with the lads.

- Oh My God baby, the show where soooo great, everyone were screaming and singing it was a blast! grinned smiling from ear to ear watching her throw her shoes aside before looking up at him smiling.
- That most be because they had you to look at. She winked making him go over pulling her in thight
- Ah really?! He grinned right when they heard a loud banging on their hotel room door.
- COME ON OPEN THE DOOR! yelled outside
- Yeah yeah easy man, we were just having a moment. spat back opening the door seeing storm in when he did so. Stopping right in front of he starred down at her with an angry look making her take a step back. Seeing the cheerful angry weren’t exactly something she was used to.
- You knew didn’t you? You fucking knew! yelled at her making go over and push a bit away from her.
- Calm down will ya?! said calmly
- Well you try to be in my shoes and then fucking tell me to calm down! yelled back making ’s eyes widen
- WoW easy tiger! replied taken back
- And she knew, I just know! said pointing angry at making look back and forth.
- Knew what? blurted out.
- About . You knew!
- I um I... I don’t know what you’re talking about! She blurted out kind a scared by the look in his eyes and therefor walked over and stood a bit behind taking hold of his hand. Seeing her a bit scared made feel the need to protect her, the need that had been so huge ever since that day she had been taken away from him. Never would he let anything happen to her again. Not even have their friend yell at her like that.
- mate, stop, if you think you can come in here and jump on her like that your gladly mistaken. said in a harsh firm tone that made back away a little. Taking a deep sigh looked up.
- Can I talk to you alone? He said quietly towards .
- Sure! He replied
- I’ll just go and... um something... mumbled not minding getting away from there. Looking up at she watched him smile softly before kissing her cheek before she left the room. Watching the door close after her looked down at seeing he had sat down on a chair and had his head in his hands.
- So what happened mate. When I saw you just a while ago you were on a buzz.
- That was before told me she was leaving. blurted out.
- She what?
- She’s leaving, she has decided without involving me that she is moving abord for a year to study. Just like that, she might as well just say she’s leaving me. replied now in sobs.
- Damn! replied as a matter of fact
- You can say that again.
- But why?
- She want’s to study, it’s not enough for her being here with me with us!
- But she could study here.
- I told her that but she claims she can’t breathe here, she feels trapped and is tired of having a gaurd nearby all the time.
- But they are there to protect her, so she won’t fall in the hands of a crep again. stated.
- I know, why doesn’t she understand? sobbed down in his hands making kneel down in front of him.
- Mate, maybe she just needs a little space, she’ll be back, she can’t live without you. You two belong together. replied softly
- I don’t know I tried everything she just wouldn’t listen.
- Well she is stubborn. stated making a little smile spread on ’s lips.
- She is.
- It will be okay, but don’t go after my woman like that again. said standing up again.
- But she knew I’m sure she knew.
- Even if she did, she wasn’t the one to tell you and I’m sure tried to talk her from going.
- Your sure about that? asked raising an eyebrow
- Have you forgotten how close those girls are?
- I guess for a second I did.
- Yeah. How about a beer in the bar? smiled at him
- Or two! mumbled
- Yeah that two come on mate. said pushing his mate out the door and headed down to the hotel bar.

Chapter 2


Hours later stumbled into their room.
- Bed! He mumbled falling down appon it waking up doing so. Rubbing her eyes she watched how he had corlapsed on the bed fully clothed.
- I was asleep. She pouted pulling the duvet over her head trying to get peace again.
- Sorry baby. cooed drunkly while trying to pull her in.
- Your drunk. She sighed smelling the alkohol coming from his breath.
- That’s ’s fault he made me.
- I’m sure he didn’t force you too. She replied pushing away on his back which made him bit his lip. Looking over at him she couldn’t stop a smile spread over her lips seeing how drunkly cute he was looking at her.
- Your not leaving our bed are you? He pouted on.
- No but you did wake me and by the look of it you need sleep.
- Much sleep, but you stay with me.
- Could you at least take this of? She asked pointing towards his jeans.
- You would like that would you? He grinned cheekily
- Stop thinking dirty Mr. .
- I can’t help it.
- I bet you can’t.
- Nope I’m innocent. He replied giving her his best puppy dog eyes.
- Stop that.
- Help me. He replied licking his lips watching her shake her head while he took the duvet away from her noticing she was only wearing a shirt of his.
- You missed me? He asked rasing an eyebrow nodding towards the shirt well knowing that when he wasn’t there with her and she missed him she would put on one of his shirts.
- Well you weren’t here. Now give me back the duvet! She replied trying to pull it back.
- Hun please help me, I’m to drunk to take ‘em off. He replied smiling that smile he knew she couldn’t say no to.
- Fine, if that will give me some peace. She replied straddling him and quickly he felt her tiny hands open up his belt. Looking up at her he bit his lip when he felt her hand by accident move over his member. Throwing his pants to the side she looked up at him seeing the familiar look in his eyes.
- Baby. He said in a whisper pleading with her to have his way.

Down at the bar.
- New one. mumbled to the bar man.
- You sure you haven’t had enough? asked looking over at his friend. After seeing how drunkly had left the bar he had decided to go and keep an eye on and he him self had ended up by the bar sevel beers later on.
- Probably. I should do what did he went up to bed to . stated
- Your not saying you should go up in their bed? asked to drunk to understand.
- Nooooo, but now you saying it maybe that would be fun and is not leaving.
- Nope but you still have .
- is probably busy deciding a bunch of stuff without me.
- Maybe she’s not. I don’t understand much of what ya saying right now. said drowning a shot.
- Me neither. replied looking around the room with a blury look.

Feeling his arms hold her tightly she sighed satisfied yet a little annoyed over the fact that she couldn’t fall asleep. When she moved she felt him hold her tighter in his sleep.
Getting an idea in her head she tried to get out of his grib without waking him up...
- Hunny let me go baby. She whispered to his ear. Hearing him mumble in his sleep she somehow manange to get free. Pulling on a pair of pants and a shirt she leaned down and kissed his cheek before quietly leaving the room.
Entering the hotel bar looked over and saw and there obvious checking out the other males in the room. Walking over to them she noticed the blury looks they met her with.
- What are ya doing? asked
- We’re checking out guy’s. stated while nodded to his reply
- What about him over there ? asked nodding towards a guy further down the room.
- Yeah not bad, nice butt. replied
- Yeah, but I like the more firm once though. replied as a matter of fact making ’s mouth drop by their words.
- Seriously! said shocked
- Wha? asked turning his gaze at her.
- Your not even gay , how can you...
- Ssssshhh! replied placing a finger on her lips while studying her from head to toe.
- ! said
- Wha... you rather want me to check you out?
- ! She replied shocked
- Yes babe? asked raising his eyebrow
- You, you... you!
- I what? I’m just helping find a guy! laughed finally making it clear to her.
- Oh! She replied feeling kind of embarrassed
- Hehe so funny! laughed after watching the display of and .
- Stop. replied looking down.
- Ah don’t be embarrased I like your ass to, just don’t tell that. grinned
- ! She replied and playfully hit him
- Oh is it that you’re in too? laughed
- Wha, hey no. make him stop!
- Why this is fun.
- Hmm!
- Why are ya down here anyway? asked
- I couldn’t sleep. She stated while pulled her over to him.
- Hmm well make more effort with ya hair so we can’t see how much has messed it up. laughed putting his hands through it making sure it was straight.
- I knew it. said
- Knew what? She asked getting a bit more embarrased by the minut.
- That he would go up and get his way with you.
- Hey, what’s that suppose to mean. She replied taken back
- That he sat down here but then he started to just want to go up and be with you. Guess I couldn’t give him what he wanted.
- Well ‘em. grinned making both of them starred up at him.
- Hey I just stated I wasn’t gay to her, do I need to do that to you too? said firmly
- Hehe no no. replied laughing on.
- I think we need a new subject. stated
- Me too. replied
- I have one. said making them look at him.
- Does he know you went down here? asked more serious now.
- Well no he was asleep.
- So you left a note.
- No I did not.
- .
- Don’t okay.
- But if he wakes up and can’t find you. You know how protective he became after that accident thing, he’ll get worried.
- I know but shouldn’t I be able to go down here without him getting worried?
- I don’t know, should you? asked while ’s gaze went from one to the other loosing the point in what they were on about.
- Guy’s guy’s come on. butted in.

Upstairs sleepy tried to pull her into his arms. Feeling no one there he pattered the side beside him finding it empty. Nuzzling his face down into his pillow he called out her name. Hearing nothing he slowly openen up his eyes finding the room empty. Getting a flash running through his mind he felt his stomach flip. Shaking his head he told himself he really had to get over it and put it into the past. As always he just couldn’t. Sitting up his head went a little dizzy. Taking a sec before he got out of bed, he found his boxers on the floor and pulled them on before heading into the bathroom to see if she was there. Finding her no where he headed straight for his clothes putting it on quickly and headed straight to the bar not thinking clearly. Hearing laugh and her soft giggle afterwards he felt his breathing relaxe again.
- I told you he would worry if he woke up. whispered towards her. Before she could react she felt his arms sneak around her from behind and pull her thight. Hearing him sigh deeply while kissing her neck, she knew had been right, but she just didn’t think he would have woken up.
- You need a drink? asked towards . Looking up at his mate shoke his head, he really just wanted to sleep and take her with him. Even though he knew he was being to over protective of her and the lads had warned him about it, he just couldn’t stop. Feeling her turn around his heart melted seeing the look in her eyes.
- Sorry. She said softly
- No it’s me, I know... I’m sorry... He mumbled on
- No don’t , I should just have left you a note on the pillow, sorry but I couldn’t sleep.
- You could have woken me.
- No you looked to sexy. She grinned making him raise an eyebrow.
- Did I? He grinned
- Naaa you didn’t, I have seen you sleep. laughed overhearing what they said making join him and shut him a starre.

Chapter 3


Crashing down on the bed in and ’s room the next day starred at her friend running around in the room for no obvious reason.
- You might take a deep breath it could of help! suggested from her position on a chair.
- I’ve tried that. is so mad! said finally stopping and starring at her friends
- Of ‘couse he is, your leaving. stated
- I know, but still... I tried to see him this morning but he was a sleep and to wasted from last night.
- That’s so true. smiled
- Yeah you saw him. sighed
- I did, and he was helping finding a man, it was pretty funny actually. grinned slightly
- So did they find one? asked with a grin
- Um no.
- So where is he? asked
- He’s sleeping on the sofa in our room. replied rolling her eyes.
- And you don’t like that?
- Naaa it was all right as long as he stayed there. A girl needs her bed ya know!
- Ah me know but Ryan had this idea in his head last night that he was suppose to lay there with mommy and daddy so we didn’t get time to our selves. smiled
- So ya need time for ya self now? grinned
- Well yeah sometimes, you know! said making her friends grin while shaking their heads.
- Anyway so did he say anything? asked taking on a nervours voice
- Not much that I know of, sorry but it was clear that he was really upset.
- Damn. mumbled
- You do know it sounds like you are leaving him? said carefully
- But I’m not. spat out
- No but you say that you are leaving for a year to the other side of the world, and that makes it sound like your leaving him.
- I know, but I’m not leaving him, I just need a break. sighed
- Exactly, hear what you are saying . replied softly
- A break...
- Yes which often ends up meaning?
- A break up. sighed deeply looking down to the floor.
- So are you breaking up? asked as careful as she could.
- No, no I’m no such thing, I love him, I just need some time away that’s all. explained
- He might not understand it. informed her friend
- I know, but I have to do this. said firmly.
- Well we’re gonna miss you. said
- I’m gonna miss ya too. You’ll look out for right? said quietly
- Of ‘couse we will. smiled.

Walking into their room she sighed things were gonna change, it would all be diffrent without her friend . Hearing someone moan she looked towards the sofa watching hiding his face behind a pillow. Looking over to the bed she saw lay flat on his stomach on the bed. Walking over to him she straddled him and sat up appon him hearing him moan in response.
- Ehhhh be nice, not feeling to well. mumbled down into the pillow.
- Ah sweetie. She replied and leaned down and placed a kiss on his shoulder.
- That’s nice don’t stop. He mumbled down in the pillow with a smile. Moving her hands to his shoulders she started to massage him making him relaxe even more and sighed deeply.
Moving the pillow looked over at them and sighed. His mind went to and how he wasn’t going to be with her like that for a very long time soon. Feeling the pain hit his heart again. He sat up to fast and had to hold on to the sofa feeling his head spin from all the alcohol he had consumed last night. Taking a deep breath not able to be watching them he got up and left the room.
Seeing suddenly leave, quickly whispered just a minut to before she ran after . Grabbing his arm in the hall he turned to look at her. Seeing the teary blury look in his eyes just ached her heart.
- .. She said softly
- Don’t I’ll be fine. replied not wanting to talk right now.
- But you left so sudden..
- Sorry I just needed to get out.
- I’m sorry, I did try to talk to her you know.
- I know he sighed
- You can talk to me if you want I’m your friend too.
- I know , thanks but I just need to be alone right now.
- You sure?
- Yes, see ya later. replied quietly before turning around leaving her in the hall. Going back in she gave a weak smile now seeing him sat up on the bed.
- What’s wrong sweetie? He asked
- ’s so upset and I can’t do anything about it. She sighed
- He has right to be upset baby his woman is leaving.
- I know but she’s coming back. She replied trying to make a year sound like nothing.
- Sweetie a year is a long time to be apart from someone you love even though that someone is coming back.
- Yes but still.
- Sweetie if it had been you I would be going crazy too. He said softly
- You would? She asked and looked up at him
- Couse I would. Why? You’re not thinking about doing the same stunt are you? He asked feeling slight worried all of a sudden.
- No of couse not but I do understand that part where she wants to be able to breath, which can be heard having a guard running after you all the time. She explain knowing by the look that now showed on ’s face that maybe she shouldn’t have said that.
- But they are there to make sure ya all safe. He spat out watching her come over and sit down beside him on the bed taking his hand playing with his fingers.
- We know that but it’s been 3 years now and we should be able to walk some places without them. She explained softly seeing the almost frightned look appon his face. Moving away from her he got up. Walking over to the window he took a deep breath before he turned around and looked at her.
- It doesn’t matter how long it’s been. There could happen something everywere and every time. He spat out.
- I know that.
- So what you’re wishing to be taken away again? He spat out and immiatly regretting his words seeing the tears start to fill up in her eyes.
- Of couse I don’t. I hated it. I was so scared, so... She cried out looking down on her fingers seeing images from back then pass her mind.
- I’m sorry sweetie. He said softly going back over to her.
- I’m just... we gotta move on.
- I know hunny and we have, haven’t we? He asked softly making her look up at him.
- Yes. But sometimes I just wished I could go around without anyone watching my move.
- I know hun. It’s just I love you so much and don’t want anything to happen to you.
- I love you too. She replied quietly making him smile back at her.

A few days later stood and in silence at the airport looking through the large glass window watching as the plane a moment earlier had boarded take off. They both knew from now on their world would change as would no longer be travelling around with them, not be there on their girly days on tour when the lads was working and not be at ’s side.
- This feels so weird. grumbled as they watched the plane fly up into the sky.
- I know... I don’t understand that she really did it. I thought she loved enough to stay. mumbled feeling uncertain about the whole thing.
- Me too... She left us all... murmured not having settled into the thought of not being around.
- And she’s not coming back... even if she claimed she would...I don’t believe she will... said quietly turning her gaze meting ’s gaze that reflected her own thoughts. bit her lips together not saying anything and with a last glance out of the window and walked back out through the airport....two guards following them close behind.

looked over at sitting on the edge of his bed looking lost and sad yet at the same time he seemed lightly calm about having left, as he was no longer yelling or throwing things, he just sat calmly in thoughts.
- You okay mate? enquired carefully as he sat down beside .
- I’m...I feel weird...not sure what I am... has left, gone on a plane and she didn’t even want me to come to the airport... muttered
- She couldn’t handle it mate....That’s what said...
- Yeah was afraid I might curse a scene but I wouldn’t have... spoke glancing around the room, noticing there wasn’t a trace of left, it was like when she left all her stuff and every trace of her left with her.
- I’m sure you wouldn’t... replied quietly.
- So that was it...No more and ....can’t believe I’m a bachelor again. mumbled gazing shortly at .
- , she’s coming back... responded
- No she’s not...We all know that, she may not say it...but we all know and she’s not coming back.... whispered almost to the point of feeling numb by now.
- She will come back I’m.... trailed off seeing the look shot at him.
- She’s not! She couldn’t live with our lifestyle anymore... She left because she wanted something else than what she had here... I know she was sick of having a guard following her but it wasn’t just that...She was just plain sick of everything. muttered feeling a bad taste in his mouth for saying it but he could tell the last time he saw her that she wasn’t coming back and her telling him otherwise was her lying to him.
- I’m sorry... said knowing telling any different was no use and probably didn’t help anyway.
- Me too. breathed out unsure of his future without .

Chapter 4


Three weeks later....
- Hey don’t look at us, she’s your wife, we’re just tracking along. said when turned and looked at them for help.
- Yeah we are. grinned seeing the fun expression on ’s face while hold his hand trying to get him to hurry up a bit.
- Come on . She said suddenly turning around making the guy’s stop and to look at her with a sigh seeing her smile broadly.
- Really sweetheart you know I love you, but you can’t be serious! replied still not believing she had actually got him this far and that she actually meant it.
- Oh come on it will be so much fun. She pleaded with him.
- But hun look at that! said pointing out towards the huge open space that had been filled up to be a country festival with people all dressed up in boots and everything and the exact music booming out from the wide stage at the far end where singers were playing. Not far from stage were a so called dance floor filled with people dancing what would be line dancing.
- Yes, it looks fun. She beamed
- Ah hunny please, I’m a rock/pop music kind a guy, I don’t even know how you got me this far.
- You did it for me, and I love you for it, I’ll show you how greatful I am later. She replied bitting on her lip making him give in.
- Fine. finally gave in.
- Ah thank you. She replied jumping at him kissing him fully on the lips, before she turned around with a wide smile heading towards all the people.
- Hehe your to nice. laughed clapping his shoulder.
- Tell me about it. sighed
- Ah well we’re here for ya. grinned
- Ah thanks! replied raising his eyebrow.
An hour later found himself sitting on some tree stump with and . Watching further away laughing with some guy’s who had just been on stage singing and were now placing a cowboy hat on her head. A nice black one that fitted her boots, the short skirt and top perfectly. A bit away from her he saw Mike making sure she was safe. Smiling watched her giggle and enjoying herself.
- Seriously I never took for this kind a girl. laughed looking in the same direction as .
- Me either, but you know it is actually kind a fun. replied making and shut him a starre but before he could get to explain himself came running over giggeling and sat down on ’s lap while he slipped his arms around her.
- Having fun, baby? asked
- Yes, look they gave me a hat, ain’t it cool? She grinned
- Very, can I try it? asked taking it of her head placing it on his, putting his three mates in fitts of laughter.
- What, don’t I fit in now? asked
- Yeah um sure. replied pulling a face.
- Hey be nice. replied.
- I am.... he started out but was shut up by her lips. feeling her tongue lick over his lips trying to slip into his mouth, he quickly forgot what he was about to say and in stead openen his mouth slightly letting her tongue in to play with his.
- Ah really guys. interfered pulling a face making them both smile pulling apart.
- Yes . grinned
- It’s not fair, I wanna do that too, but apparently would rather be on the other side of the world. pouted
- Ah . replied starting to get up to hug him but got pulled back by .
- Even so, he can’t have you. stated with a laugh.
- It’s unfair ain’t it? said
- Yes very. replied.
Hearing the lads talking turned her face and looked out over the path seeing a bunch of people dancing further down. Getting an idea she looked up at doing a puppy dog expression.
- What sweetie? asked knowing she would try to talk him into something now.
- Come dance with me?
- Noooooo No. said looking a bit scared. Right she had got him this far but going line dancing no way he was going doing that.
- Please please please.
- Sweetie no. I can’t dance that that thing..
- Either can I but it looks fun. Come on babe. She pleaded
- No hun. He replied firmly while watching her sigh. Turning her face she looked up at who now looked all scared that she would ask him. Then looking at she saw him laughing.
- Right then, I’ll go with . She replied getting up from ’s lap grabbing ’s hand before he got the chance to reply.
- Poor guy. laughed while they watched her pull with her under protest.
- Let’s go and watch the poor guy pull this off. grinned shaking his head.
Watching them stumble around not getting the moves right at all and couldn’t help them selves and almost fell over each other from laughter.
- No no I think it is like this. replied trying to move her feet like the others did. Watching how she did stod still watching her dance around giggeling while getting a step here and there wrong. Looking over at his mates he saw them stand watching them laughing. Signing help to them only made them shake their heads laughing no way. Right okay said to himself nobody knows me here anyway so let’s just do it. Taking on the moves he actually managed to get some steps right before he and bumped into each other and laughed.
- We’re very good at this. grinned sarcastic
- Very. grinned
- Need some help. A guy suddenly asked them grinning
- Does it look that bad? asked
- Hehe no me lady, well maybe a little. The guy said
- Well then please do help. replied
- Yeah? He asked looking at .
- Yeah please do, we don’t really know what we’re going. replied
Watching a guy starting to help them out and stopped their laughing and watched on how the new guy showed how to do it. Looking up at he saw him pull a face towards the new guy.
- Hehe something wrong ? asked
- How come that guy can think he can touch my woman like that? spat out
- Easy, he’s just showing besides ain’t he touching more? asked rasing an eyebrow making start to smile
- You think he’s? asked
- Hey how should I know, but wouldn’t a straight guy touch the woman more than a guy?
- You have a point.
Finally getting more moves right looked at grinning and was pretty proud of himself.
- So you’re together? The guy who they now knew as asked.
- Hehe no no I’m with him over there! replied pointing towards making him raise his eyebrow at her.
- Oh. smiled looking up at .
Finishing the song everybody turned towards the stage and clapped. Smiling turned towards and .
- So ya up for a drink? asked
- Sure maybe later I’m just gonna go over to my man, but you two go aheard. grinned just to get a look from saying how could you just leave me alone with him.
- So weren’t we just good or what? asked placing her hands on her hips looking up at and .
- Um yeah um I guess there were some steps right. laughed making slap him playfully.
- Hey Hey easy woman said grabbing her away from and pulling her in thight.
- So where’s going anyway with that chap? asked
- And who was that guy? asked
- Oh his name is and they are going for a drink. I think he likes . She giggled lightly.
- Oh really? replied turning her around in his arms so she faced him.
- Does that mean likes him too? asked
- I.... don’t.... know... she mumbled in between kisses from .
- Ah you two really! stated
- I thought you were used to it. replied
- Yeah well that was when I had someone to kiss too. pouted.
- Aww. cooed and leaned over and kissed on the cheek making him smile from ear to ear.
- Uh can I borrow her? asked cheeky.
- No way! He replied pulling her back.
- Hmpf.
- Let’s go and sit down. said. Hearing the two guy’s tease each other while they walked over to the long benches that were set up by a hill so you could watch out over the stage and dance path.
Moving over to sit on ’s lap she felt his arms sneak around her to hold her. Leaning back against his chest she sighed happily and looked up in the sky. It was getting darker but the sky was filled with stars and around her people were laughing and having fun.
- You okay sweetie? whispered to her ear.
- Yes. I love this, being here with you. It doesn’t get better. She smiled getting a kiss on her cheek as response.
- Eeehhh is back. suddenly cheered.
- Hey guy’s said a little shy sitting down beside them.
- So?? asked looking at him.
- Yeah yeah I got his number all right. replied shyly making whristle and clap his shoulder.

- Awww it was such a nice night. cooed as she was back in her and ’s hotel room that night.
- I guess it had its moments. teased her.
- Ah just admit it, you had fun too and it was soooo nice feeling normal for once. smiled snuggling close towards ’s body in bed.
- Normal? enquired with a raised eyebrow.
- Yeah.... I didn’t even notice the guards much tonight. breathed leaving a kiss on ’s chest.
- Ohhh... whispered knowing was on the point now of getting sick of the guards and although knew was nothing like in that sense, the thought of her leaving like had left scared him. Yet getting rid of the guards wasn’t something he could get himself to do... wanted them there....

Chapter 5


sat slouched back into sofa seat on the tour bus, they had just made a stop at tank station and had gone of heading for the little shop by the tank claiming she needed ice cream. had offered to go but had been determined to go out and get some fresh air and looked at him with a firm stare to hold back the guard that was about to follow her. hadn’t dared not too by the look in ’s eyes which now meant he felt like he sat on needles until was back safely on the tour bus.
- She’ll be fine. spoke dropping down into the seat next to noticing how kept staring out of the window the catch the sight of returning out of the shop.
- I know. muttered his gaze searching for .
- Mate you got to stop, you’ll end up pushing her away. said softly hoping to get through to , having observed ’s behaviour change as she got more and more tired of not being able to simply walking down a corridor without a guard following her close by. Besides that his wife had confided in him, as she felt slightly edgy not wanting leaving their little gang like had.
- I know but I can’t help it. I’m so scared of losing her. exclaimed.
- Well that is exactly what you’re going to do if you don’t relax with all the protection. You will lose her if you don’t ease up a bit. replied carefully watching the frightened look wash over ’s face.
- She understands why they are there. huffed in defence not wanting to hear ’s words of wisdom.
- She understands why you are doing it but she’s getting fed up with it. It’s been three years , you need to let it go somehow. I know you are scared but she loves you and you have to ease up for her. responded unable to lock eyes with , as he kept his gaze fixed on the window.
- Easy for you to say!! snorted but finally locked eyes with for a second.
- Trust me, this way you’re going to lose. sighed and leaned back in his seat, only getting a grunt from in reply.

Standing inside the shop looked down into the freezer glancing at the various selections of ice cream, deciding on a strawberry/Vanilla one. Going to the counter paid for the ice and slowly made her way outside. It was a relative quiet morning with not many people about, feeling the sun on her face closed her eyes and breathed in the fresh air feeling normal for a moment in time. She couldn’t remember the last time she had actually walked into a shop without some guard walking close by and she couldn’t help but enjoy the freedom it brought her. She knew why did it but she needed to feel the freedom of walking around like a normal person again. was well aware off the fact that to sudden events it was only wise and necessary but in her day to day it shouldn’t be. Nothing had happen the last three years that had giving the guards following her anything to, all they did was walk a few feet behind her, “good grief they most have been bored silly” thought to herself. Opening her eyes hearing the tour bus turn the engine back on breathed in and slowly made her way back to the bus. Steeping into the bus noticed how the expression on ’s face relaxed as he spotted her making sigh wishing could get some inner peace once more. Plumping down into the seat next to him locked eyes with opposite her and instantly knew he had tried to talk some sense into for the hundred time. Giving him a small smile fished out her mobile from her pocket as she heard it beep. “Hey , the road is clear, when you are ready. ”. Gazing at the message shifted her gaze and stole a glance at , knowing something had to change.

Standing by the side of the stage that night as the lads threw on another outstanding concert breathed in the crackling atmosphere like she always did, it always amazed her how amazing the buzz constantly felt in the arena throughout a concert with the lads. Feeling walk up to her standing by her side shifted her gaze from running around on stage to .
- You’re sure about this? asked quietly.
- Yes. I’ll be back before you know it. smiled weakly at her friend.
- You’re not pulling a on me? raised an eyebrow at .
- Of cause not. You know me, I love too much for that and you guys...you’re my family....I just need a break from the guard madness. spoke feeling nervy.
- I know....Just scared you won’t come back. said staring at shaking his arse on stage as she said it.
- Awww I’ll be back I promise. mused giving a tight hug.
- I’ll hold you too it. whispered as let her go.
- You just do that.
- Good luck with telling tonight. smirked with a weak smile making grimace in reply knowing full well it would be a fight.

- YOUR FUCKING GOING NO WHERE!!!!!!!!!! shouted grabbing the suitcase from the bed and throwing it onto the floor, making the few items had already put in it fly around the floor.
- PLEASE!!! pleaded with him.
- NO!!! IF YOU LEAVE I’LL NEVER SEE YOU AGIAN!! cried out feeling his emotions all over the place.
- I WILL come back, I’m only going away for a week visiting . I’ll be back before you know it. tried to reason with him.
- A WHOLE BLOODY WEEK WILL FEEL LIKE A HUNDRED YEARS WHEN I DON’T KNOW IF YOURE SAFE!!! howled
- I’ll be find baby. soothed walking up to him but took a few steps backwards.
- Please let me send a guard with you!! begged
- ...I need peace, I need to not have anyone looking over my shoulder all the time. explained.
- And you’re going to do it no matter what I say? scolded.
- I have too. We have to get over the past and you have to try and ease up babe, what happened three years ago is still eating you up, you have to talk to someone about it so we can move on and start our own little family. spoke gently.
- All I need is you here with me! muttered unable to see sense.
- No you don’t but maybe me going away for a little while will make you understand. sighed reaching out letting her hand rest upon ’s chest.
- You’re doing a , you’re leaving me!! swallowed hard making cupped his face in her hands at once.
- NO!!! Babe I’m not, I will come back to you I promise. I love you so very much, but I just have to do this please try to understand. pleaded with him, tears filling her eyes at the frightened look within ’s eyes.
- One week? finally asked slowly giving in, knowing it was a losing battle.
- Yes! I will come back babe. assured him leaning in brushing her lips against ’s trying to make him understand how much she loved him and therefore would be back.

furiously brushed tears away from his cheeks as he watched the airplane take off with , his pleads hadn’t helped anything, had been determined about going but she had also made a big point out of showing and telling him she would come back. Deep down knew she would be back in his arms but he didn’t feel at ease before she was, and every bit in his body had screamed at him to jump on the plane and drag back out of there and take her with him. Seeing the airplane disappear up in the sky felt a lump in his throat knowing through the next week he would have to deal with not being there and he wasn’t sure how too. With slow steps dragged himself out of the airport to catch a taxi but as he came outside and looked up he saw , and standing there, all three showing him a supportive smile, ready to help him through the evening.
- It will be alright mate!! spoke pulling in for a hug feeling ’s body shook slightly.
- We’re taking you out tonight, and you have no choice in the matter. smiled squeezing ’s shoulder as opened the door of the awaiting taxi.

Resting her head back against the headrest of her seat stared out of the little window in the plane beside her seat feeling tears tickling down her cheeks not caring the least to brush them away. It tugged in her heart as she kept seeing the sad look within ’s eyes as they had said goodbye at the airport, and she had felt herself almost giving in, hating when was scared and upset but this was something she knew she had to do for the both of them. could feel it deep down she needed to get away for a little while to set her mind at ease once more and try to get back on track, and she hoped them spending time apart would make aware of the fact that he needed to move on from the past. would be with him every step of the way but she needed to move forward with her. What had happened three years ago had pained her as well but all the hours with the psychologist had helped her and with slow steps had returned to normal life but hadn’t but he would have to if they were going to have a future together. Sighing gazed at the white clouds outside praying everything would turn out alright, at least she knew the other lads would take care of .

sat by the bar at the club with the other three lads who managed from time to time to make him laugh but throughout it was with an unhappy gaze within his eyes.
- Just think about it, now you can mess up the room all you like. injected taking a sip of his beer, receiving a raised eyebrow from .
- Yeah and drink as much as you like on a night out. added
- Like his not doing that anyway. chuckled at ’s comment.
- Or I work like a mad man ‘till gets back. said quietly
- I guess that’s an option as well. frowned it hadn’t been the option he used when left.
- Either way she’ll be back in no time. smiled at patting his shoulder as he sat beside him.
- I hope so. muttered drowning the last of his beer, hoping was right.

Chapter 6


weakly loosen the tie round the collar of his shirt as he plumped down into a chair at the hotel bar after yet another concert without backstage. What had been suppose to be one week of her being gone had turned into a few weeks now, and he hated it, he wanted her back by his side. sighed as he looked around the room and saw walking in, heading in his direction, clearly with something on his mind.
- Hey mate what’s.... trailed off as interrupted him.
- We have tomorrow off, take the night plane and go get your girl back. spoke throwing a news paper into ’s lap.
- What’s this? asked raising his eyebrow.
- Proof that it’s time you go and get her back before corrupts her completely. huffed while looked into the paper and felt his heart jump. The first thing catching his eye was all glam up laughing with some guys at a club with the headline: “Westlife star ’s wife showing her wild side”.
- It seems your girl is partying hard. said hoping he was doing the right thing by showing the paper.
- And flirting her way through. hissed, the anger and jealousy clear in his voice.
- I’m sure there is nothing in it, but maybe it’s time you fight for her and get her back here. suggested watching think for a moment.
- Your right!!! answered determined getting up from his chair.
- Your coming? asked taking a few steps away and stared back at .
- No, she’s your girl, you go!
- But ? questioned
- ....is not my girl anymore. smiled meekly seeing nod and walk off.

grinned to herself as she got ready for another night out on the town, and she could hardly wait to get out again. She was enjoying the freedom to the limit, no guards where following her around, following her every move and it was liberating to breathe again without the watching eyes on her all the time. A sudden hard knock on the door tore out of her thoughts but as she opened the door a shock wave washed through her.
- . cried out as he rushed passed her and into the room.
- I want my wife back home!! snarled forgetting that he had planned to win her over with charm and get her back home but that plan vanished as soon as he saw how was getting dressed up to head out on another night on town.
- And I will be soon. spoke stunned still trying to cope with ’s sudden presence and behaviour.
- You’ve said that since you left weeks ago. snorted not giving in.
- I’ll be back when I’m ready!!
- NO!!! ENOUGH, IT’S FUCKING ENOUGH ! yelled throwing the news paper in his hand at her only to see a smirk on her face before she walked towards her ringing mobile. Feeling his blood boil he walked over with firm steps and grabbed the phone before she could get to it and threw it over at the bed.
- LEAVE THE FREAKING PHONE ALONE, WE GOTTA TALK! He yelled at her.
- THIS IS NOT TALKING AND WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE COMING OVER HERE STORMING IN LIKE THAT?
- I’M YOUR FREAKING HUSBOUND, AND WHAT YOU’RE DOING IS NOT ALRIGHT!
Watching how upset he was she took a deep breath and stepped away from him. Truth was she understood him.
- Can’t you just understand? She sighed
- HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO UNDERSTAND THIS, YOUR FLIRTING WITH ALL THESE GUY’S ON THE FREAKING OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD WHERE WE’RE ACTUALLY SUPPOSE TO BE! barked angry
- I’M NOT DOING ANYTHING WITH THEM! whined
- REALLY? Kian smirked crossing his arms.
- GOD YOU KNOW I NEVER WOULD CHEAT ON YOU! She yelled back at him, seeing him sit down on the bed. Looking down to the floor he breathed in deeply knowing she was right he knew she wouldn’t.
- I got scared. finally breathed out feeling weak in every bit of his body, nobody could make him so weak as her.
- Why? She asked in a softer tone watching him calm down.
- Of loosing you! He replied weakly and right away she walked over and knelt down in front of him taking his hands in hers making him look into her eyes.
- You never will! She cooed.
- Why are you doing this? He asked nodding towards the paper.
- I didn’t mean to at first. I just went to visit and for the first time in a really long time I had no one following my every step or so I thought and I just let loose and partied ‘till dawn. It did me good , but I never did anything with anyone because they weren’t you, you’re the only one I wanna be with.
- But you were only going to be gone for a week he cried out.
- I know but when showed me around and got me into all this I just wasn’t ready to stop. - I’m gonna kick her butt. He replied with a half laugh making her grin lightly.
- Fine... But sweetie I needed to do this and you got to stop being so overprotecting because it’s too much. said seeing him nod slowly
- I’ll try but I will still protect you! He stated starring into her eyes.
- Babe, you need to talk to someone about what happened, otherwise it will go back to being the same as I left. I know you. spoke quietly.
- So if I see a psychologist you’ll come back home with me? raised an eyebrow in question. - Yeah...listen I would never leave you, but things has to change so I can breathe and we can move on to our future. explained softly stroking his cheek.
- I just want you to come home. I’ll do what it takes. whispered as smiled up at him weakly before leaning in letting their lips finally connect after weeks apart.
- Then....take me home... breathed locking eyes with ’s emotion filled pair for a moment until he leaned back in kissing her lips more forcefully, showing her just how much he loved her.

Smiling softly ahead of her watched sitting by the hotel bar the next evening and she could feel the calm erupting inside her, she was back home with the people she should be with. She had spent all day alone with without anyone watching them and it had done them good. was even keeping his promise and had made an appointment with a psychologist, doing what he could to get them back on track and loved him for it. Shaking her head from her thoughts gazed at once more, he seemed different from when she had left, it was like he didn’t have so much weight on his shoulders. Walking up to him softly touched him on the back.
- Hey stranger. smiled seeing turn around.
- Ah hey girly, it’s great to have you back, maybe we can get the cheery back then, he missed you kiddo. spoke giving a tight hug.
- I missed him. So how are you? You seem better. enquired as she settled down onto a chair beside .
- I am...I’m okay. smiled
- And you haven’t asked if we took back home with us. said raising an eyebrow.
- That’s because I know you didn’t. and I are over...I know that now....We weren’t meant to be, I guess we were too different. replied sincerely.
- Maybe one day. said quietly unsure of what to say but knowing he was probably right and hadn’t seem to want to come back home anytime soon.
- Maybe. Glad you are back home though. You and belong together, that I do know. responded just as appeared behind , wrapping his arms around her and dropping a kiss on top of her head.
- WEEEEE is back!!! cheered entering the bar with and right on their tail.
- I am. smiled turning around on her chair looking up at planting a gentle kiss on his lips before easing herself down from the chair and hugged as she came up to her.
- And no before you ask I didn’t bring . spoke looking up at and over ’s shoulder.
- I know, she called me last night, but you are back. Sometimes it’s real and they come back. grinned looking up at .
- I never doubted my girl was real for a second and would come back to me. chuckled.
- Yeah keep believing that mate. laughed clapping ’s shoulder and hinting to the bartender for a beer.
- Either way, she’s here and that is all that matters. responded.
- Exactly. interfered and pulled ’s arms round her body.





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