Everythings Changed

Chapters : 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10!

Chapter 1.

>>I know you didn’t want me.... I know you didn’t want me to be a writer... I know you wanted me to be something I wasn’t... I know how you looked at me... And I still remember how your words hurt me in so many ways.... But now... Everythings changed...<<

walked around in town looking at everything, it all looked the same as it did when she left 2 years ago. It was like the only thing that had changed was her. It was like going through memoryline, everything that had happened came back, it was all just a bit to intense. So she found her way back to her new flat, which her old friend had helped her to fine, when she decided to move back. Before she left she had lived with her friend , but they kind a lost contact, and that even more so when she got a boyfriend, but so it goes she guessed. She thought about how weird it would be to see them all again, and it kind a scared her. Still didn’t know why she was doing this...

- No it’s not her kept repling shaking his head. He was out in town to party with his mates, starring at the girl over by the bar. She was laughing and surrounded by a few guys. She looked fantastic in her mini skirt and the top she was wearing....
- But it is her, she has moved back kept saying
- No because doesn’t look like that.... She never wear that kind a clothes and..
- How many times do I have to tell you that she have changed?
- Many mumbled still starring at her
- I think is right interrupted
- Thank you replied
- Besides if somebody knows it would be it came from
- Meaning? asked looking at
- Well have seen her from time to time in London and thinking about what happened.... stopped by the look from ...
- Happened? What happened?? It came right away from
- You haven’t told him? asked
- No, he didn’t need to know... mumbled
- Know what? asked
- Well tell him said and went over to get a table with and ..
- What? asked again...
- and I we....
- You what...
- We went out like we had done many times before.... We were both really drunk and bout unhappy...and it just happened....
- She was unhappy? And what happened?
- Yeah you know she left after you had made her a mess and she was hateing her life and umm she moved first to Scotland and then to London.... She got to be that writer you didn’t want her to be, but she made it... She love being a writer but... well I mean she’s not happy....
- ?
- don’t you get the picture... looked at and saw his face change..
- Oh my God you didn’t?
- Well umm...
- You sleept with her? spat out in shock
- It just happened it didn’t mean anything, it was just one night...
- Yeah right...
- It was, we could never love each other more than friends...
- Right...
- It’s true...I mean it made us really close friends but that’s it...
- Can’t believe you did that
- Mate... you didn’t want her...
- That does not fucking mean that you can go and take her... I always, always cared about her, and I never meant to hurt her, and I did want her at times... replied angry and smashed his beer on a table and walked away with after him
- At times...right... it came from and turned around and looked at him
- I had a girlfriend for crying out loud.... was close to yell while he looked at who didn’t answer. looked back at the girl said was ....Their ... He couldn’t believe she had changed that much... He watched her turn her face to reply some guy and he saw the eyes shine, even her face had changed a bit, but it was her... the smile were the same and...
- I know you had a girlfriend, we all knew, and we all knew...
- How blind I was, you don’t have to say it answer and just nodded.

- Can’t believe it’s you a guy said towards
- Yeah it’s me alright
- You sure are changed
- So I’ve heard replied with a smil still feeling people starring at her especially the eyes from guys who used to be her friends, and that especially one guy who had meant the world to her back then....
- Hi sunshine a guy said and put a arm around her, so she looked at him
- she said happy to see him
- Hi... So how weird is it to be back
- Very
- Hehe I thought so laughed lightly and ordered a beer...
- So um for how long have they planned to keep staring at me? asked while fiddling with her drink
- Ohh you been away for so long and look comepletly diffrent so they all in this good all town is gonna starre...
- you know who I mean...
- Who? tried to talk around it
- , , and umm ... said while having problem getting the last name out of her mouth...
- Oh... Well they are a bit afraid, you know they don’t take rejection very well and their afraid you will reject them....
- Really?
- Yes and besides their chekking the new out you know, but um do you want cantact with them again?
- We’ll already talked about that ..
- I know, but do you?
- I miss , and and yeah I wish we could be friends again...
- ...and ? asked nervous
- I..I don’t know.....(silence).... Can I have a new drink...

The night got wirlder and got more drunk as time went. How weird it was being back, but at this second she was loving being in contact with , and again.... And well he was still doing the starring thing, while refused to go to him. At some point she ended up sitting by a table talking to ...
- This is grand grinned
- What is? asked
- Us talking again, you know we missed you
- I missed you too but I just... I had to shut you off back then... it hurted you didn’t trust me enough at the end... replied quietly
- I know and we’re sorry ( smiled lightly)... But let’s start over shall we?
- I think we shall...
- Good... I’m not gonna push it or anything but what about ?
- What about him said getting in defrence right away
- Can you forgive him too?
- He never asked me too
- I know, but if he really, really did?
- I don’t know he really hurt me, even more than you did, he broke my heart... replied and felt the tears coming on it’s way..
- I know but he is sorry and he has got sane again...
- He, really is that possible?
- Yeah you shouldn’t think so hehe...but...
- , don’t.... said looking him in the eyes begging him with her own eyes and he got queit....
- OOOOhhhhhhh I woooouuuuuwwwww you laughed stumbling over and placed his arms around
- Hehe wwooouuww?? laughed
- I think it means he likes you or something grinned
- ehh I wooouuww you too said like a little boy
- Ohhh I wwoouuwww you too smiled and ’s face lighted up in a huge smile

Later....
- .... ... said finally getting the courage to approach her...
- .... ... mumbled standing alone with him in the club, feeling her heart beat nervously
- ....I... I... um your back.... mumbled
- Yeah so it seems....never thought you would come and talk to me...She replied wishing she had not said the last sentence, but it just came out... and it meant she saw a bit of hope in his eyes...
- I umm I didn’t know if you would talk to me...
- Either did I....
- You look beautiful... He said and couldn’t help himself as he touched her and letted his hand slid down her arm, and he feelt the electricity going through him wanting to pull her into his arms... kiss her again... But she stepped back shaking her head lightly...
- I’m sorry I just... He mumbled
- ...Just what?? Thought I had forgot everything while I was away?...
- No I didn’t think that, I just... I wish you could forgive me... I’m sooo sorry for everything, I know it was my fault, I’m sorry...
- ...I...I...I.. You wanted me to give up my dream about being a writer, and even if I had done that for you it wouldn’t have been enough.... You would still look at me like I wasn’t good enough for you... said feeling tears in her eyes... Why could he still make her cry...damn it she thought...
- I know but it was good you didn’t listen to me ‘couse I was a fool I know that now but I’m sorry it had to go that far.... You moved...
- I had to, I had to find my self...I... damn you.... you still make me cry... sobbed and right when she felt the tears founding their way down her cheeks she rushed out of the club...
- ... I’m sooo sorry.... mumbled....

Chapter 2.

- Damn damn damn him.... cried while hearing somebody running after her.
- stop, please.... An arm grabbed her and tried to pull her into his arms...
- No don’t, don’t no....She cried
- Don’t ran out on me too
- I’m...I’m he wasn’t suppose to be able to make me cry anymore...
- Sweetie what happened
- He.... He tried to say he was sorry... and I..I can’t do this... I can’t...Maybe I shouldn’t have comed back...
- Boble you can’t keep running away, you could met him in London too...
- Then I’ll move back to Scotland....
-
- No, no don’t make me feel, leave me alone...You hear me... leave me alone! cried out and ran away..... stod back looking after her, knowing he should let her go...

sat on the plane with the , and on their way to do some promotion. He thought about his talk with the night before, he was in London doing his solo thing. felt wierd about leaving, now none on them would be home for if she needed them, not that it made a difference. He knew was right when he said she had changed, grown up, she could make it on her own, she had done all that for 2 years... and besides were there, not that they were talking yet...
- Mate... said and gave a shock...
- Oh sorry, but are you okay?? asked
- I don’t know...He replied and looked down
- It’s right?
- ....Yeah....
- You didn’t get to talk to her since that night at the club?
- No... she doesn’t want anything to do with me...
- Give her a chance, it was the first time she had seen you for 2 years...
- Yeah I know.... but it was like I couldn’t reach her...
- Nobody can comepletly reach her anymore replied queitly
- What?? said confused...
- She shuts everything out that makes her fell and think to much. You know what said, she writes all day and party at night, all so she doesn’t fell or think...
- But that is wrong almost cried out...
- I know and is worried about her so am I...
- Is thats why he was happy she talked about moving back home...
- Yeah... He thought it might help her...
- But what if it doesn’t... It haven’t yet..
- I don’t know... But something happened when you talked to her...
- Yeah I made her run away crying...
- Yes you did...
- Why do you sound like thats a good thing asked almost mad
- ‘couse you made her feel again for a while...
- I did? smiled lightly at the thought
- Yes... maybe you can get her back on track...
- And if I can’t?
- I don’t know sighed queitly.

- But I don’t wanna do any interviews said irritated
- Come on just this once... It came from her publisher
- But why? I hate those, they just wanna ask about me, not my books
- Because it’s good for the sells and you know it...
- Okay FINE! But only this once sighed and hang up the phone.
She hated it. She had refused to talk to so many journalist that it annoyed her publisher and she knew it. She knew she had to do one, so she wouldn’t lose the chance to get her books published, but damn it she didn’t want to.....
She got ready to go the office of the journalist because she refused to have them in her own home. She felt nervous when she sat in front of the journalist who showed out to be a guy called Josh.
- So I have to ask I know your a girl who don’t do interviews so it’s an honour I get the chance, but why is it that you stay out of them? Josh asked looking her up and down making her feel a bit anoyed but hiding it...
- Well that’s because it makes me more mysterious..
- Really?
- No... But I thought it was a good answer, I just wanna keep my private life private that’s all..
- But you can’t keep everything a secret Josh replied trying to charm her
- I know that, but you can always try. I write because I love to write and I’m good at it, people don’t need to know more about me..
- Now we are talking about you books, then their always seem to have an ending that leave the reader up to think about an ending themselves, why is that?
- That is because you have a person with problems that there is not necessarily a solution to and besides I like to end up the book with the readers who keep guessing...
- Good answer....Josh said letting his eyes wander over her body....
- Josh would you mind looking me in the eyes said and notice a shade of red on Josh cheeks...
- Of couse not, I’m sorry....
- Don’t worry about it
- So I have to ask, the rumour is going that your seing the former member of Westlife is that true?
- Yes he is a friend...
- Only a friend?
- Yes we are friends but nothing else... answer while she sighed inside herself.

Finally a while later she was home again. Relifed it was over she crached down on her sofa, just to hear the doorbell a secound later. She went to open the door...
- ... said surprised
- Yeah..I’m...hey..
- Hey...wanne come in?
- Yeah thank you said and walked into the living room...
- Nice flat...She said looking around
- But it came from
- Theres no photos...
- Oohhh well their just not up yet... Can’t believe your here... said and sat down..
- I know... I’m just... I thought that maybe we could start over....
- It’s funny so many who have said that to me since I came back....
- ...We were great back then, together all of us...
- ...All of us... that’s a long time ago...
- I know, I’m sorry we lost contact I missed you...
- Well you were busy...
- Don’t say it like that...
- Like what? You were, you got a boyfriend, and he took all your time. You know I was happy for you....
- I know but you and I disappeared...
- Yes we did and at last I gave up....
- I’m sorry...
- Me too.... I was jealous you could make it work with but I couldn’t with... replied but stopped her sentence...
- Maybe you could now, he’s changed too...
- No it’s to late...
- But..
- Don’t, I don’t wanna talk about it... mumbled and the silence grew...
- ...at least your other dream came true, you became a writer... it came from Louise
- He yeah I have just been talking to a journalist about my writting... My publisher demanded me too usually I refuses but had to this time...You should have seen him... He was looking at all of me except in my eyes...
- Haha I also heard you twisted all the guys heads the night at the club where you met the lads again....
- Hehe yeah a thing you always did, I bet you still do it...
- Hehe maybe but for some reason doesn’t like it...
- Hehe I bet he doesn’t...
- We should go out again one night like we did once apon of time...
- Yeah we should... smiled lightly... maybe things could get back to how it was, if just... if just he wouldn’t make her feel again...

Chapter 3.

- heheee
- Hmm ummm whaaa mumbled into the phone still sleepy
- Oh did I wake you?
- it’s in the middle of the night
- Hehe is it?
- Yeah why aint you sleeping?
- I’m having a party (HIIIII ... I heard the other lads yell in the background)...
- Hehe you guys are insane....
- No no, I thought you would be out too, so it didn’t matter....
- You thought hehe?
- Heeyy I can think (Hehe can you I heard laugh)....
- Of ‘cause I mumbled...
- .... said carefully
- Yes
- Do you know what?
- No! What?
- I miss you....
- ..Umm woouww you too...
- Hehe... ...
- ....
- missses you even more..... said and the silence were complete...
- are you there.... It came queitly from ...
- ....yeah.....
- Wanna talk to him....
- ....I can’t....
- Oh.... But he really misses you.... Ouch .... don’t hit me...
- ....tell him I said hey...
- Oh okay....I’m gonna go again see ya soooo looonnnggg....
- Bye .... hang up the phone again and dropped it on the floor..... He missed her...

The next day went out shopping with ‘couse tonight they were going out to party and it was not going to go queitly....
- So what kind of clothes are we after asked with a cheeky smile
- Something wild and free laughed
- Like this asked and took some tight black pants out and showed them to
- Oh yeah and this black tight glimmer top thing here ya go, try it... and I’ll try this grinned... They took each a fitting booth in use, and tried out clothes and had a laugh during it all.

- Hehe ( laughed, he was sitting on the plane back home) ain’t it great going home now, will be so surprised to see me
- Didn’t you just say her and would go out to party tonight? asked
- Hehe yeah and they have been trying out naughty clothes grinned and pushed to who sat queitly by his side
- Come on mate, maybe it will be tonight you get a chance said and looked over at
- ....maybe... mumbled

was busy getting ready for the party with the music so loud she didn’t notice were ringing the doorbell until she called her on the phone....
- Hehe hi Louise, sorry about that come in grinned, openen the door and went into the living room to turn the music down a bit.
- Hehe it’s okay.... Dear your gonna turn some heads tonight...
- Hehe so are you I see...But hey this will do the last touch ( said and found a chain belt) take that on
- ....thank you.... smiled
- So shall we go?
- Let’s...

The party had been going on for some time at the club and the attention were on and that had jumped up to the band that were playing some live music that night. They gave it all they had and some more...
They were in the middle of a song when , , and entered the club...- Oh my God that’s... spat out and with his 3 mates he stopped up with beers in the hand and starred....
: Doesn’t everybody feel this way sometimes?
+ : It’s a lose, lose situation for a shitty little crime
: You can never win with men, it’s pointless trying to try
+ : It’s a lose, lose sitiation until the day you die...
- God they look.... mumbled
- Naughty clothes huhh?! It came from
- That one is my girlfriend remember... said
- .... ... mumbled
starred at his girl. He had never seen her like that... Black thight pants + a top with glimmer, even her hair had a touch of gllimmer, he was spechless. stood beside him unable to believe was up there looking more delicious than ever before. He looked from her black boots that went up to just under her knee, her navy green mini skirt, the black top that just covered what it should... He couldn’t tak his eyes of her and a shock went through him when her eyes met his for a secound.

Everybody screamed and clapped when they finished the song...
- Hehe thank you very much guy’s said while grinned. They left the band and hugged
- I can’t believe we did that....and God ...
- Hehe yeah go and make him drool some more laughed while Louise ran into s arms.
- Well ladies your amazing said
- Well thank....wow...you.... replied while caught her from falling. She looked up into his eyes seeing the wanting in them, the same as in hers.
- ....dance... got mumbled out... nodded and let him lead her to the dance floor. felt her body towards his, which made him feel like his whole body would burn out by her touch. They were so close, if he just leaned an inch closer their lips would touch, it made him insane, but what if she would reject him?!
- .... .... I.... whispered...
- ...ssshhh...no...don’t talk.... don’t think... whispered and placed a finger on his lips and he felt his whole body siver....
She starred at his lips... gently she touched his lips with hers and felt the passion burn strong.

More kissing, flirting, drinks later she found her self enter ’s bedroom with him kissing her passionately. They stumbled into his bedroom. leaded her over towards the bed holding her closely towards his own body. He kissed her neck and then her lips she felt his tougue play with hers and shivers ran down her spine. He slowly pulled of her top and pushed her down on the bed. He looked into her sparkling eyes and saw the same passion as he felt. She pulled off his shirt and feeling her touch his chest made him pull her even closer... No words were needed.... 2 years passion there had been shut out came to life...

woke up with a smile remembering the night... Sleepy he reached out to touch her beside him, but the side was empty... he quickly openen his eyes... He felt his heart sink she was gone... He pushed his face down in the pillow were she had been and her scent filled him....
- Sweetie why did you go.... he whispered into the pillow

Chapter 4.

It was late in the aftenoon stood leaning in over his kitchen table tapping his fingers down on the table. His ears were wide open listing to every single sound that could appear, hoping the phone would ring, the doorbeel ring or that she would just come in through the door but nothing happened. Everything in him was telling him something were wrong and he was going crazy. Suddenly in frustration he smashed the hand down on the table and in a split of a second he had sweeped whatever stood near him on the table down on the floor.
- DAMN IT he yelled and reached out for his mobile
- Hello... The voice in the other end mumbled
- !!! said frustrated
- Yeah what’s up ...
- Have you talked to today?
- No why?
- I can’t get a hold of her and I’ve tried all day
- Don’t worry I’m sure she is okay, she’s probably just out...
- With who said sounding a slight jealous of the thought
- You know she could also be alone, what’s up with you?
- Nothing I’m just worried, why would she? She can’t just??
- Are you talking about last night? asked
- What have you heard?
- Only that and were pretty wasted and that left the club with you and my guess is that you didn’t just follow her home...
- I just don’t undestand any of it... sighed
- I know.... replied queitly
- Brian speak to me... why does she tell you stuff but nobody else...
- She doesn’t tell me a bunch of things she doesn’t have too...
- But... AARGGHHH!!
- Calm down , get her to talk to you, keep trying even if it makes her cry, she needs to learn how to feel again...
- How can you say that? Make her cry...
- I didn’t say you should make her cry... But it is a little funny...
- What is? asked comfused
- That your suddenly trying so hard, 2 years ago...
- That was 2 years ago a lot can happen in 2 years bite him off...
- So I have noticed, but don’t worry she’ll appear again she always do..
- What does that suppose to mean...
- Just that she have gone before couse she needed to be alone and nobody in that time can get in contact with her...
- And your just fine with that? asked agry
- Of ‘couse I’m not, but I can’t do anything else than I have tried replied anoyed..
- But...
- Just look out for her while I’m away, call me if you hear from her.. Bye ... said and hang up...

sat down on the grass and starred down in the lake. She felt more tired than she had done in months, she would stand up and go home, but somhow she couldn’t get her self up. She remembered how wasted she had been last night and just as much as she hated her self for sleeping with just as much had she wanted to feel him close again.
She heard someone coming wishing nobody was coming over towards her....
- ... ... She heard a soft irish voise say and she got quickly on her feet. She looked into his blue eyes, and just wished he would go away...
- What are you doing here? sighed
- I was worried you were gone when I woke up said softly trying to touch her but she stepped away
- I had to go... started walking
- wait don’t do this he said and grabbed her arm so she turned around and faced him
- Do what? Stop something before your’ll regret it and hurt me again- It’s not like that
- Then what is it like? She asked sounding frustrated
- Last night... we both wanted it, but maybe we should have talked first...
- Talked?? Funny you would never listen to me.... replied feeling tears building up in her eyes...
- I did listen even back then I just couldn’t do what you wanted me too
- WHAT I WANTED YOU TOO she yelled and the tears made it’s way down her cheeks and made ’s heart ache...
- I wanted you both, I felt so devided and made the choice I thought was the right one
- And you choosed her, she used you but you wouldn’t even listen to me, not even as a friend, you told me she was the one, do you know how much that hurted me? She cried out
- I know and I’m really sorry
- NO YOUR NOT! ALL THAT GUY’S IN MY LIFE WANT’S TO DO IS TO HURT ME
- That is not true
- THEN WHY IS THAT ALL THEY END UP DOING, I’VE HAD IT, AND I’M NOT GONNA LET ANYONE MAKE ME FEEL AGAIN
- ...
- NEVER cried out and started running towards the street
- BABE DON’T DO THIS, please give me a new chance yelled and ran after her
- WHY? Tell me why you want a new chance all of a sudden
- ‘Couse I have missed you like crazy and it’s true
- I gave you many chances, I forgave you time after time, when you had to ruin your promise to me couse of her, and even when things had nothing to do with her... But when you at last also hated that I wrote couse I wanted to be a writer it got to much, you took to much from me... you took my heart which hurted the must couse you always stepped on it in the end, but then you also wanted me to drop that.... I just... why? I loved you.... cried feeling her whole body shake...
- I... Sweetie I know and I’m soooo sorry but please let me make it up to you, I’ll show you can trust me with your heart again, I’ve changed too, pleace babe.... cried out feeling his heart beat faster and faster...
- I... I can’t ... I can’t take no more I can’t... cried and with the eyes on she took some steeps back....
- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cried out in shocked and watched the car hit her before he could get a chance to get her away. He ran out on the street where she laid and kneeled down and took her in his arms. The guy in the car came out and saw the girl he had hit, he was shaking while he looked at her... she was unconscious, but there was a pulse...
- Is she your...(the guy looked at )....I’m so sorry...I... He mumbled but didn’t answer him. He looked over at another guy who had come to help who was now ringing 911. they both looked at , who in shock sat and holed her in his arms...
- Sweetie talk to me.... please don’t leave me babe he cried kissing her foreheard.

Chapter 5.

Hours later was walking up and down the hall at the hospital, felling more and more nervous for the longer the time went, until the doctor would come back with news. He had called the others so , , and sat there waiting with him..
- You called right? suddenly asked looking at ...
- Yeah yeah don’t worry about that.... replied
- He’ll be here tomorrow with the plane, he couldn’t get here before explained
- Why? cried out looking up at
- Why what?? asked worried out of his mind
- We were just trying to get back on track, and then this.... said
- Which were what was trying to do said in ’s defense while the doctor appear...
- So what?? She’s gonna be okay right, right?? It came from
- Well she is very weak, she have got some broken ribs, a bad sprain ankle and a huge headache, but with a lot of rest she should be able to get over that.... The doctor said...
- But... said...
- But it seems a bit like she doesn’t care... We can get her body well again, but her mind and soul is another story... But we’ll do whatever we can, I can promise that...
- Can um... can we see her? asked...
- I’m sorry not yet...
- But you said she... started out...
- I’m sorry (the doctor put a hand on ’s shoulder)... She doesn’t want to see anyone yet, and right she’s also to weak....
- Please I beg you... cried out and The doctor looked him an...
- Okay, you can look at her for a second through the glass, but only for a second..
- Thank you almost sobbed and followed the doctor, the others stayed as been told and waited.
- There, she’s in there, but promise me to go after a second....The doctor said, nodde and saw the doctor say something to a nurse before he left. looked in through the glass, the sight made his heart twist around and the tears form in his eyes. She looked so little in the bed and he saw she was crying like she would never stop. The pain was written all over her face and he just wanted to storm in there, but the nurse keept an eye on him. He put a hand on the glass right before the nurse came over to him...
- I’m sorry but you got go...
- But she needs me.... She needs someone.... she’s alone in there.... sobbed
- I’m sorry but....
- I have to go.... whispered and the nurse nodde....

It was gettine early in the morning and was sitting on a sofa all night while the others had gone home to rest. He blinked with the eyes while the dream about her was going through his mind like so many times before....

= Flashback=

- Morning babe whispered pulling her tighter in his embrace feeling her snuggle down in his embrace...
- ..muuuummm.... I missed this she whispered...
- And I missed you he smiled looking into her eyes feeling his heart fluttter at the sight of the small smile that creept onto her lips. He kissed her lips, as he felt her kissing him back he deepened the kiss. Shortly after he heard his phone and sighed not willing to take it...
- Hehe sweetie can’t you hear something grinned lightly
- mmmmmm no... He replied and kissed her neck....
- Don’t know how I survieve living without you for 3 weeks he whispered hearing a small groan excape from her mouth when he kissed her passiontly again. At last he took the phone that went on ringing...
- Yeah he mumbled.... feeling kiss his lips slightly and almost dropped the phone and saw a cheeky smile on her lips couse of it...
- Hello are you there, he suddely heard the voice say...
- What yeah I’m here he replied finally noticing it was in the other end of the phone
- What are you doing?
- Nothing, just laying about he ginned
- I’ve missed you, haven’t you miss me....
- Sure I have he replied trying to avoid to say the words
- Then say it? He heard her say and he sighed looking at still laying in his arms, knowing to well that could couse a raw between them...
- Sweetie kept pleading him to say all those things, it was like she knew he was with ....
- I miss you too hun he finally said and as he knew stiffen and pulled her self out of his embrace even though he tried to hold on to her....
- Sweetie I have to go he said towards while his eyes followed ’s every move. She was out off bed pulling her clothes back on and he knew she would leave but he couldn’t let her. He told off and went over to and grabbed her by the waist and pulled her towards him.
- I’m sorry sweetie...
- Why don’t you save that for your girlfriend? said feeling hurt...
- Because I want you he said trying to win her over...
- How can you say that when you don’t even want me as your girlfriend? I’m just something you play around with
- Babe you know that’s not true, it’s just that I love you both and I can’t just leave her
- NO COZ YOU DON’T WANT TOO AND WHY SHOULD YOU THIS IS PERFECT FOR YOU she yelled and ran towards the door but was there right away
- WHY DO YOU WANNA RUIN US? yelled frustrated back
- RUIN???!!!!! I’m not the one who want’s to ruin it, I love you more and more day by day and I’m sorry but I can’t keep takeing knowing your with her when all she is doing is useing you, and you don’t even see it cried out
- And how do you know I’m not useing her too, I’m sleeping with you behind her back AINT I? said harsh
- ...I.......... For heaven sake she have been doing that towards you for ages and she is only with you for the fame and.... She cried but stopped her with a finger over her lips
- Don’t! He said looking into her tearfully eyes feeling the need to kiss her. He hold her tight starting to kiss her feeling her trying to resist him but failed. Slowly she ended up opening her lips so his tongue went in to play with hers...

=Flashback end=

- Hey mate said and pushed to
- Huhh?? Wha?? It’s morning? mumbled still feeling the sensation of the dream in his mind. That was how it had been he had won her over that morning but soon she couldn’t cope with him being with anymore, and it all went down hill from then. sighed.
- You should go home and get some sleep...
- NO, she got to have somebody here, even though they wont let us see her... replied looking over towards the room she was in...
- I undestand but I’m here now, so you can just... started out...
- No, I have to be here....
- No go home and rest, get a shower, I bet she is sleeping now, theres nothing you can do right now..
- But... mumbled while looked at him...

Mean while.....
opened her eyes and looked around, while she remembered everything and she burst out crying. How could he just come back after 2 years and take down all the walls she needed to stand through it all. She hated it all, she had hated everything for a very long time, but with ’s help and her writting she was still here but now... damn it! The thing was that it wasn’t only , it was everything, nothing could make everything forgotten and get things back to normal. She starred at the machines that was tieed to her, she could just turn one of them off and it would be over, she would stop feeling, stop crying, just stop.... She reached her hand out....

- She’s gonna be oooo.... stopped and turned around and starred at the nurses that stormed into ’s room....
- You said she was going to be okay yelled towards before he rushed over and looked in through the glass, at the same time as came in, and saw the panic which spred in over him and he followed at once...
- WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON Yelled...
- I don’t know replied in panic starring in through the window where the nurses where busy around , and suddenly the doctor came running in too...
- I thought she was going to be okay, YOU GUY’S FREAKING TOLD ME ON THE PHONE yelled
- That’s coz she was replied
- STOP yelled at them so they looked at him surprised
- But.... She’s... mumbled
- I know said and placed a hand on ’s shoulder while the doctor came back out
- We got in there just in time, she’s gonna be okay, but we have a problem The doctor said carefully
- What do you mean a problem? It came from and the doctor looked at them trying to figure out how to break the news
- Well what? asked while was standing there in panic
- She did it her self...
- Did what? asked confused
- She turned off one of the machines
- SHE DID WHAT? yelled
- You got to realise something... The girl in there doesn’t want to live...
- Your not saying she want’s to take her own life spat out in shock
- I’m saying you got to help her getting her spirit back, you got to make her love her life again the doctor tried to explain
- I can’t believe it mumbled
- I’m sorry guy’s, but have faith it’s not over yet the doctor said trying to give them hope before he walked off. slided down by the wall and sat down on the floor...
- I can’t believe she tried to.... said almost in a whisper while still in shock looked down on him, not able to do anything.... starred in through the glass watching nurses fiddle around ... He felt a tear excape his eyes... Had he failed her???

- Here you go a nurse said fiddeling with a pillow behind .
- Thank you sighed watching the nurse
- So are you okay, can I get you anything the nurse asked smiling to much so it anoyed her
- No thank you I’m fine, I just want peace she sighed once more so the nurse looked nervous at her
- .... don’t worry I wont do anything...she whispered
- You need to talk to someone child
- Don’t start.... She mumbled feeling weak closing her eyes for a second...
- Well you do need rest, just sleep if you can, I’ll be right outside the nurse said walking towards the door. watched her leave looking over and saw a glass window and gasped. She saw looking shoked down, saying something to someone she couldn’t see and starring at her with tears in his eyes. Her eyes met his for a second and she felt her body shake for a second before she quickly turn her face away, feeling a tear excape her own eyes....

Chapter 6.

- I really think you should talk to them the nurse tried to persuade
- ...there’s no point... whispered back
- They really care about you, and they wanne see you so bad, talk to you and you need that
- I just need peace....
- Sweetie we can fixe you body again but we can’t fixe your heart the nurse said carefully
- ...I...I know that... She replied hoping they would just leave her alone all of them.. they would at some point anyway...
- Them let them help you
- So what... Do you want them all in here to me... She asked realizing she wouldn’t get off..
- No... just one to start with... the nurse said looking at with hope in her eyes so sighed
- Fine... But I’ll decide who come in here...
- Sure... Who can I get for you? The nurse asked all happily while thought about it...
- ... Then get for me... Get .... replied almost in a whisper
- Okay, I’ll go and get him, she replied and walked out leaving feeling a bit tense..

and the lads were sitting in a room starring at each other with a tense atmosphere when the nurse came in.
- Hey we have progress the nurse smiled
- We have spat out and they all starred at the nurse
- Yes is willing to see one of you now, but um she decides who...
- Yeah? said with a weak smile looking up hopefully
- Yeah which one of you are ? She asked looking around watching the suprised looks on all faces and the big disappointment from and ...
- Wha?? She want’s to see me? asked a bit suprised
- Yeah if your ...
- I am! said watching the looks on and knowing he shouldn’t say much, so in stead he just followed the nurse...

When they were out of sight....
- What the fuck just happened almost yelled
- Um wants to see mumbled holding ’s hand..
- Yes But ...
- Yes started to say
- No not , I’m her best friend for crying out loud
- But maybe that’s... tried again
- You just shut up said angry....
- And what about me It came from
- WHAT ABOUT YOU? YOUR THE FREAKING REASON WHY SHE IS IN THERE yelled
- YOU DON’T HAVE TO TELL ME THAT snapped back
- GUY’S CUT IT stepped up yelling at them so they starred at her
- She’s right, it wont help to blame each other said
- It’s nobodys fault it came from

walked in to room and saw laying in the bed still thight up to all the machines. He felt slight nervous as he looked at her and she looked up into his eyes.
- Hey said almost in a whisper and she smiled sad towards him as an reply. He stood fiddeling with his fingers not knowing what to do since he wouldn’t scare her or freak her out again.
- .... You can sit down by my side you know she said nodding towards a chair and smiled while he took the chair and placed it by the side of her bed.
- You really scared us, why did you do that? suddenly said
- I’m so tired , it’s just that everything is so hard and I just, It was so easy just to pull the.... started out but stopped as she started to feel tears on the way again...
- ...but don’t you know how much we care about you... asked...
- ....I....I.... but you know how it was.... it was like you didn’t trust me or something....
- We did trust you, it was never the point
- But then what was the point? She sighed
- I’m not sure anymore, I just want us all to move on together sighed
- It’s just not that easy....
- I know, but just let us help you, please ... Let us help you back on track, we can do that, we can help you said with eyes filled of hope. She looked at him and shacked her head...
- How I’m a lost case by now
- No YOU ARE NOT he replied and took away a tear that fell down her cheek....
- It’s too hard she sobbed....
- I know it will be hard but it will be worth it in the end, let us help you, let help you..
- ??? I can’t.... he... I.... We were.... She sobbed...
- I know what you were, and I know what happened and I’m really sorry about what happened between you two, but things are diffrent now, and you know you have to talk to him again.... he is really worried about you, he does care... ( said and looked her in the eyes and smiled slightly to her)... give him a chance... please...

- God he has been in there long sighed pushing the button on the coffee machine
- I know said clapping on the shoulder..
- I just I thought she would have asked for me, I’m the one that stock by her he said tasting his coffee while doing a face
- Coffee not good smiled
- Have tasted better once..... he said whiled they walked back to the others...
- She just needs time, then she’ll ask for you, like she’ll.....
- Ask for you! finished her sentence.
They came back into the waiting room finding only and ...
- Where’s and ? asked while sat down beside taking his hand in hers....
- Just over there said nodding towards the other end of the waiting room....
- Why ain’t they with you? asked...
- Their just talking sighed knowing what was coming
- But why? Is it about cried out...
- We don’t know, but said she is a little better said
- Really smiled
- Yes smiled back and gave her hand a squeeze
- Would she see me? said with hope towards
- Not for the minute, she needs a few minutes alone told us replied
- Oh sighed looking over towards and ...

- So she will really see me? asked again
- Yes but don’t expect anything and remember I actually talked her into it but don’t tell that... replied
- No... He’s watching us... sighed
- I know said looking over at .

A few hours later took a deep breath trying to clam his beating heart when he stepped into her hopital room. She looked so weak, so fragiled and he just wanted to ruch over and put his arms around her, making sure everything would be alright again, but he knew he couldn’t. He frozed to the spot right there and then when she looked up at him, smiling a weak smile. Looking into her eyes he knew this was going to be even harder than he had imagined. He walked up to the side of her bed and sat down on the chair.
From agruing with her self about if she should let him see her or not, seemed so pointless now he sat beside her, knowing she couldn’t have said no. No matter what she did she couldn’t run away, he always seemed to find a way to pop into her life. Not letting her forget how much she had loved him and how it had hurted that day it all had ended. Just seeing him like this, just looking into his eyes she knew he cared, something had changed, but did it really matter anymore, she shoke her head lightly, trying to get all the thoughts away. Thinking and feeling only leaded to heart ache and who needed that??
- sweetie finally got out of his mouth while feddeling with the end of her duvert..
- yeah... she replied weakly looking at him
- Thank you for seeing me
- Well it seemed pointless not too
- What do you mean? He said some what confused over her comment
- Just that you would have comed in sooner or later anyway
- I like sooner
- Sweetie I know it’s a lot to ask for, but pelase babe will you do something for me he asked looking at her beggenly and saw her look away for sec..
- Denpens on what ya asking?
- Live babe I beg you you have to live, please don’t try too.. try to... he just couldn’t get the words out and he felt the teas fill up in his eyes. saw them too and felt a prick in her heart course of it..
- to end it you mean!! it just seemed so easy to try, I’m just soo.... I can’t think straight anymore, I can’t... I don’t know how to... I just it hurt so much... she said and saw the tears faling down her cheeks and raised him self up from the chair and carefully yet a bit scared he pulled her into a hug, feeling she didn’t push him away, he hugged her even thighter..
- I promise it’ll be okay again, just let me help you sweetie he whispered feeling her body shake, and tears push it’s way behind his eyes.

Chapter 7.

One week later...
- So you’re the lucky one to take her home?! The doctor smiled lightly
- What do you mean?! asked a bit confused
- Oh nothing really, just noticed you weren’t sure which one it should be
- Well guess we all wanted to take her home mumbled a bit uneasy not understanding why he had to put his nose in it. He was right though, he had had a huge discussion with and about who it should be, until the others had interfered. The conclusion had been him, because of the fact that it was him that had keept contact with her, and probably at this moment in time knew her the best. Sighning to him self he walked down the coridor beside the doctor...
- So you are taken her back to her flat right?
- Yeah she demanded that smiled weakly
- Hehe well it’s fine as long as there’s alsways someone with her for the next time being.
- There will be
- Good, and make sure she rest, she is still weak and needs lot’s of it.
- Promise, we’ll do anything we can..
- I’m sure you will. Now she is better, also her state of mind, but there’s still a long way to go, you must realize that the doctor said seriously and nodde before the doctor openen the door to ’s room..
- Hey sweetie are ya ready smiled at her
- Yes, can’t wait to get outta here sighed
- Just remember what I told you, rest and a lot of it the doctor said looking seriously at her. sighed and nodde tired of hearing that sentence, it must have been the 10 time this day.
- Okay let’s go said taking her bag in the hand before shaking the doctors hand...
- Take care the doctor said
- Thanks add
- Just take care of her he replied and nodd and left the hospital with his friend.

It was in the middle of the night when pushed the duvet of her, she couldn’t sleep. Crawling out of bed going to the guest room she peeped into the room and saw wide alseep. Then she qietly went into the living room going over to the window and starred out. It had felt great getting back to her own flat, and had been great, but yet he tried a bit to much. Sighing softly to her self she turned around starring at the red roses on the coffee table, and a soft smile escaped her lips. Taking the card from the flowers she snuggled down on the sofa. Stroking the card with her finger before she read it for the 100 time that evening...
“I can't let you go, you're a part of me now, caught by the taste of your kiss, you're under my skin, baby your’ll get through it and I’m right here, welcome home!! Love xxx”starring at the card her mind went back...

=Flachback=

- Morning hunny, the bed is to empty without you whispered coming from behind kissing her neck, making her siver while she was trying to write on her new story.
- Sorry just felt the need to write and you sleept so peacefully she replied feeling him suddenly stop the small kissses he placed on her neck before. Turning her around on the chair so that she faced him, she spotted the annoyance in his eyes that starred into hers. Taking her hand she softly slided it over his still bare chest, making him siver sligtly but not given in.
- Hun, why do you even bother writting stories, it’s foolish he said a little harsh and she toke her hand away from him...
- Because I like writting, why does it borther you?
- It just does he said stepping away from her but still looking at her
- But why? I like doing it and it doesn’t harm anyone besides I can’t sit around doing nothing waiting for you to give a moment of your life to me she replied feeling a bit hurt not understanding why he was against it...
- What do you mean waiting for me, I’m right here ain’t I? He said grabbing her by the waist kissing her long and hard on her lips while she felt his hands sliding under her top.

That same evening she was with in a club partying when she saw them. Feeling her heart beat with a speed that made her almost lose her breath she froze to the spot. He was stading with the back to the bar holding that bitch firmly close to his body kissing her deeply then heading for her shoulder, and that’s was the moment his eyes went through the room and right into hers. Feeling her heart jump to her throat and her eyes willing up with tears, she got trouble breathing. His deep eyes all blury were starring into hers, but he didn’t move, and she couldn’t bare the sight of them together, turning around she ran out with tears stemming down her cheeks.

Early next morning she heard a firm knock on the door and then the doorbell. Not willing to see anybody she didn’t move but since the knocking went on she finally stumbled out of bed going towards the door and heard him yell “Baby come on open the door, I know you’re in there”... Opening the door he got in and she closed the door again. Looking at him with red eyes from crying, she didn’t know what to say...
- Sweetie I’m sorry about what you saw last night, but you know how it is he said smiling weakly at her trying to trouch her...
- Don’t touch me she cried out feeling the tears fill up her eyes again
- Oh come on baby, it’s not that bad...
- I love you and it hurts so bad seeing you with her she blurthed out with tears stemming down her cheeks
- I’m sorry but I didn’t know you would be in the same club...
- Greee , how can you sleep with me in the morning and then with her at night?
- I can because I love you both you know that replied firmly but seeing it wouldn’t work with her, she wasn’t giving in this time. Grabbing her, pulling her close he kissed her shoulder, and immediately seeing the picture of him doing the same with that cow last night she pushed him away. She couldn’t do this anymore she had to save her self.
- .... don’t.... stop... I can’t share you anymore...
- Don’t be foolish babe he said trying to grab her again...
- ... choose... she said almost in a whisper
- Come again? He said raiseing and eyebrow not believing what he just heard
- You have to choose me or her? She cried
- You don’t know what your saying he replied in disbelife
- Choose
- Sweetie you can’t ask me to do that...
- I love you but I can’t live like this, I can’t she cried looking up at him with teary eyes that made his heart ache yet he couldn’t comfort her, he couldn’t tell her what she wanted to hear, he just couldn’t....
- Hunny I can’t leave her he replied looking at her feeling his heart ache even more when he saw the expression on her face and the tears running down her cheeks. Looking at her soft lips he loved so much he saw them tremble and a quiet leave escaped them.
Closing the door after him she slided down the closed door sobbing uncontrollable.

=Flashback end=

Snuggled further down on the sofa a quiet sob escaped her lips. Still being able to feel all the pain from that day a tear fell down her cheek. Looking at the card in her hand she didn’t know what to feel, had he changed, did he really want her now and could she even let him in again??!!

Chapter 8.

Waking up next day still snuggled up on the sofa she noticed a blanket that had been put around her sometime while she where asleep. Pulling the blanket further over her she starred at the card laying on the table, must had taking it out of her hand and laied it there. Wanting to go back to sleep she closed her eyes again but with no luck. Hearing coming in he sat down on a chair close to her.
- Hey Sweetie he said softly
- Hey she mumbled back
- So you didn’t like your bed? He smiled lightly
- Couldn’t sleep!
- Oh...
- I want to sleep
- But you have, it’s noon now sweetie
- Is it?
- Yeah...
- I still want to sleep, you don’t feel when your asleep
- Oh sweetie you need to learn to feel again, feeling can be a good thing sometimes too tried to explain beending down now in front of her stroking her cheek with his hand.
- that’s a long time ago she mumbled looking down not wanting to see the look in his eyes. The look that begged her to let her walls down and feel again which would also mean her facing all the pain in her heart again and she couldn’t bare it.
- I know it will be hard, but I’m here with you he said softly
- No , I’m alone she replied finally looking up into his eyes
- No you’re not sweetie...
- I am, I don’t have anyone to love, to hold to... stopping her sentence she looked past him again, hearing him sigh.
- Sweetie you got to get over him, you got to get through the hurt and move on...
- I don’t know if I can she replied with tramling lips
- You still love him?! sighed
- I don’t want to talk about it she replied almost in a whisper
- Either way sweetie you got to face the world, it has so much to give without him or with him, it’s still filled with things just for you to take if you dare to...
- but I can never get the one I fall for...
- sweetie
- don’t , please, just...
- Okay, just for now though nodde and then got up leaving the room.

Still laying on the sofa an hour later she heard him come in bending down in front of her.
- Babe! He said softly leaning over kissing her cheek.
- Hey she mumbled feeling a siver go through her by the touch of his lips on her skin.
- How are you? He asked almost in a whisper and she sighed to her self how could he even ask that, he should know by now.
Getting a little worried about the expression on her face and the fact she didn’t answer he tried to catch her gaze with the eyes.
- Sweetie please look at me! He begged.
- Thanks for the roses, their lovely, my fave, you remembered! She said finally looking up into his eyes. Making him smile reliefed.
- Your welcome sweetie and I remember a lot of things
- Do you?
- Yes!
- Like what? She asked looking him in the eye making his heart flutter.
- Like how much I loved you he blurted out without thinking. Hearing those words made the tears prick behind her eyes, her heart beat and ache all at the same time. Sitting up straight. She starred at him, his eyes filled with emotion.
- Don’t , you can’t just come back now and say that and think I’ll just forgive and forget like that, you left me, you let me go, you left me lonely. She cried
- Please Sweetie I really did and I still do love you and I want to help you, just try to trust me again, love me he now begged getting kind a scared seeing her get up while tears was clearly on the way in her eyes even though he could see how she tried to fight them back.
- I.... I... I want to but I don’t know if I can...
- let me help you... I love you he replied feeling his heart each seeing the tears win the battle over her straight.
Hearing him say he loved her she lost control over her feelings and couldn’t stand it and ran into her bedroom leaving a worried calling her name behind.

Letting the tears steam down her cheeks like they wanted too grabbed a piece of paper and started to let her feelings go.
Reading what she had writen she took her hand and swapped the tears away from her cheeks and stood up. Walking into the bathroom she put some water in her face trying to freshen up. Walking back to her room she found some other clothes. Then she took a deep breath and walked into the living room to find in there.
- Is gone? She asked kind a uncertain.
- Yes, I’m sorry if he upset you
- Don’t, maybe it was a good thing replied watching raise his eyebrow not understanding what she said.
- , could you take me to Pete?
- Pete? What do you want with Pete? asked not really sure if he liked where this was heading.
- I need to show him something, he’s still that studio guy thing right?
- Yeah, where are you going with this?
- He was you’re mate and he helped you in the studio and stuff right?
- Yeah???
- I wanna see him!
- Sweetie you should rest
- Yeah but you also told me to feel again, I’m trying ! She sighed and finally nodded okay.

Walking into the office helped her locate Pete.
- So what is it you want to show me? Pete said looking at her.
- This! said handing over her piece of paper. Reading the piece of paper he got surprised, not expecting it to be this good, when had informed him and asked him to take a look at it just to help out.
- It’s really good, what do you want to do with it? Pete finally said after reading it a few times and then looking up at her.
- Um that maybe you could give it to someone who could sing it? mumbled now nervous and starting to regret what she just did.
- Or you could sing it?
- What??!! Me now you must be kidding I’m not good at singing
- Isn’t she ?
- Well um yes she can! replied stardled over where this was heading.
- Then come, maybe it will even help your self! Pete replied winking at her.

Later that evening...
- Did he really say that he would get it on tonight? asked nervous
- Yes he did Sweetie smiled at her
- But so fast! I didn’t mean me to sing it
- I know, but it helped you didn’t it? smiled
- Helped, I started to cry like a baby! grimassed at him.
- Hehe yeah you did, but it’s good that you get it out Sweetie and then it doesn’t matter if it’s in writing songs, poems or even in a diary.
- Hmm... she replied nervous looking at the radio.

Sometime another place.
- Hey mate a beer yelled
- Sure yelled back turning on the radio while suddenly feeling the world stop hearing the speaker say : and now for the first time ever we have a new song just to be played now on air songed by , here comes “Lonely Too”! Hearing her voice froze to the spot..
- Hey did he just say ? asked laughing lightly expecting a no coming.
- Yes ssshhhhh hissed, hearing her voice, hearing what she sang he felt tears prick behind his eyes.

How can you ask me how have I been?
I think you should know well the shape that I'm in
You tell me you wonder if I was okay
Well that's a damn fool thing to say

The water is risin, the water is ride
And you're always standin on the other side
And then comes the moment, I wait in the dawn
With hours to lie here alone

And you seem so surprised that I'm feelin this way
How am I so lonely today?
If you ever loved me the way I loved you
You would be lonely too

So here's to the lovers for old times' sake
Who don't hold each other to the promise they break
And smile through the window
And wave on the street
Cause that's all you want now from me

Should I say somethin to put you at ease?
Or should I get down on my knees?
If you ever loved me the way I loved you
You would be lonely too

If you ever loved me the way I loved you
You would be lonely too

Chapter 9.

2 weeks later...
- No I no...
- But can’t you see this could be your break, your song is doing so well on the charts
- It was a one time thing I’m no singer . I’m a writer, nothing more and nothing less.
- You could be more and singing about how you feel makes you feel better.
- I admit singing that song in the studio made me feel better yes but I don’t want to be a singer.
- Then what do you want?
- For crying out loud why is it that “what I wanna be when I grow up job wise” is sooo very important to people, I have never understood that, never. Life is not all job and money, why can’t you all not understand that it means nothing to me, nothing! She spatted out making feeling a bit annoyed not understanding her.
- But it is important, everybody has to work so why not have a job you could love?
- Because not everybody is so lucky to be able to do that, besides i do have a job I love I write fiction which I’m happy with doing.
- But sweetie, you can’t keep living by just doing that, you haven’t gotten a book out for some time.
- I know that, DON’T YOU THINK I KNOW THAT? THERE’S A REASON TO THAT THOUGH AIN’T THERE? She screamed at him.
- I’m sorry I just wanna help.
- THEN DON’T PUSH ME! She yelled leaving him behind running into her bedroom slamming the door shut.

Sighing to him self seeing her run off felt helpless.
Leaving the house a while later knowing she wouldn’t come out and talk to him anytime soon. He went down to the pub and met up with . Setting down in a corner he looked over the table to face .
- So, I’m surprised you wanted to met up. started out.
- I guess. replied taking a sip of his beer.
- So? said
- It’s about I’m scared she’s falling back.
- Why? asked reasing his eyebrow
- She’s not facing the world.
- It’s only been about two weeks.
- I know that but still. I thought I had gotten through to her but when I asked her what she want, you know with her life she pushed me off. She refuse to talk about it. She says work doesn’t mean a thing to her, but she has to work. Brian replied as a matter of fact. Hearing those words made look down and shake his head.
- What? asked not understanding his reation.
- Well you said you had been her only best friend through the last years, so that you even have to ask me tells me you don’t know her that well at all. explained looking up at him.
- What the crap do you mean? I was the only one there for her when all of you just took off! replied with a slight anger in his voice while seeing the pain wash over ’s face.
- I know and I hate the fact that I did that but I still know her good enough to know not to push her like that. After everything she’ed just been though it’s to soon to push her with that stuff besides work and money don’t mean a thing to a woman like .
- But I don’t get why it doesn’t mean anything to her, it means so much to everyone else.
- Well if you haven’t notice she is not like everyone else.
- Hmpf!
- .... She knows what she have to do, she has always known...
- Then why does she ignore the facts?
- Because they hurts. Give her time, let her get back to writing, that’s what she loves and whats she’s good at.
- And that comes from you? frowned
- What’s that suppose to mean?
- You were the one who didn’t want her to write.
- I was wrong okay, I thought it was silly and that there were no futher in it but she proved me wrong without even knowing it.
- She’s good at it. She wrote that song “Lonely too”.
- I know all that. You and Pete even got her to sing it.
- Yeah, I tried talking to her ealier today about it, she could get somewhere with it, but she doesn’t want to even though she was the one who asked me to see Pete and show it to him.
- However it was only to give him the song not for her to sing it her self. You told me so. she’s a writer, let her be that, don’t push her, or we risk loosing her. replied with a beg in his voice. He knew her and he knew he wouldn’t risk loosing her again just the thought made him sick to his tomach.
- She needs to be pushed. replied quietly making look at him with a firm look that told him to back off.

Hearing had left got up from the floor. Catching her reflection in the mirror on the wall she frowned. Her eyes were all red and puffy. Turning around she opened the door walking around in the flat while she took eveything in. By the end she walked back into her bedroom starring around at the stuff in her room. Pulling out a box she sat down on the floor and lifted the lid of the box. Looking into it she saw photes of happy times, things she had stuffed down into the box one day it had all got to much and hadn’t openen it since. She felt the ache in her heart, she missed that smile on her lips, she missed being happy. She missed him. Starring a photo of her and back when things had been okay. Suddenly seeing a specific photo sticking out she pulled it up, starring at it.....

Coming back to the flat called out her name in hope she had forgiving and forgot about earlier. Not getting an reply he sighed before walking towards her bedroom finding the door open and hearing the flat totally quiet he felt his stomach flip over while he picked into her room founding no one there. Starting to get worried he looked around the whole flat finding nothing. Finally sitting down apon her bed he sighed maybe she had just gone out for a second, she would be back soon. Suddenly a thought hit him. He jumped to his feet and riped up the door to her wardobe finding stuff missing. Running out of the room in a hurry into the one he was sleeping in he found one of her smaller suitcases missing.
Feeling the panic raise a million times it’s speed. He speed dailed ’s number.
- What you done now? half grinned in the other end.
- She’s gone missing, I can’t find her! spat out in panic.

Chapter 10.

- What the fuck do you mean you can’t find her? yelled down his phone feeling the same panic rasie in him
- She’s not here and some of her stuff is gone.
- DAMN IT YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOOK OUT FOR HER!
- I KNOW THAT! But I thought she was better.
- But who was with her when you met up with me?
- No one. replied quietly.
- DAMN IT .
- I know okay I know.
- The doctor told us not the leave her alone.
- I know but that was weeks ago.
- I told you not to push her.
- What do we do?
- I’m coming over. said

Knocking on the door. looked up seeing the old lady starre down at her.
- Miss , so good to see you again. The old lady greeted her.
- You too Mrs. . I need a place for a few days.
- So you came to my casa, well your welcome sweetheart, thought I was never going to see you again, come in.

A few hours later the whole gang had ended up in the flat. Everyone discussing what they thought about what happen but no one with an idea to which where she could be.
- So I talked to the doctor said after ending his call.
- And? asked
- And he said not to worry yet, she might be coming back soon couse well she has disapeared before and turned up again. However he agreed it wasn’t a good thing to happen. She needed peace to find her feet again.
- But what can we do? asked again
- Wait! sighed
- Wait?! frowned in disbelief.
- Or go look for her? replied.
- We’ve alredy done so. sighed
- Try again. butted in.
Hearing a phone go off they all grabbed their phone but to end up starring at . Ending the phone call in both relief and disbelief he looked at his mates.
- So? It came from
- It was my mom she thought she would let me know was safe and that I didn’t need to worry couse she knew I would.
- Which means? asked again not getting what was saying.
- She’s at my moms.
- At your moms they all spat out in disbelief while nodded.
- She knew as one of my best friends and they got on well.
- Ain’t that just a little wird? ask
- Yes . replied shaking his head.
- However she doesn’t want to see anyone. And my mom told me that we should give her that space so she could recover and my mom would look out for her. replied quietly feeling his heartbeat get back to normal knowing she was safe.

Having spend the next week in peace and quiet givning her time to calm down without feeling people push her to get on with life in the way they wanted her too, she felt better. And having Mrs. taking care of her made her even feel cared for.
She had decided what to do, what she needed for her self and just hoped her former friends would accept it. Tonight would tell her all that.

Recieving a text message felt his heart beat faster seeing who it was from.“Hey , I’m feeling better and ya mom has been great, sorry I just took off. Hope ya free tonight, met me at ya parents tonight. xx”

Looking in through the door she looked at her looking in the mirror checking if she looked okay.
- You look fine dear. Mrs. smiled warmly
- You sure? turned around looking up at her.
- I’m sure. Now do you need anything? She asked
- No thank you, really thanks for everything.
- Ah cheers babe, ya welcome. She replied hugging her.
- So we’ll head off and I’m sure and co. will be here soon. Just relaxe and your’ll be fine. She smiled to her before heading off.
Not long after found herself in the middle of attention with , , , , and starring up at her waiting for her to start telling them why they were actually there. Feeling the nervousness in the pit of her stomach she took a deep breath and then looked at them.
- When ever your ready babe. smiled at her and she looked at him greatful for his support.
- Okay right well first of all I’m sorry I scared you, but I’m all right and even feeling a little better now. I asked you guy’s to come here because I need to get through to you guy’s and tell you what I need or doesn’t need for that matter to get better. I am at a point where I wish to get better and be happy again but there’s still a long way and I really need you guy’s to not push me to figure out stuff...
- But... cut in getting a firm look from for it.
- No pushing , you don’t even realize how much worse it makes me feel. It’s my life and you have to let me decide what’s gonna happen with it and what’s not. I’ve started on a new book, and yes it’s gonna take a while for me to write it but this is what I’m good at and what I wanna do. I hope you can all support me but if you won’t I understand. I know I can be a bit strange with my meanings on stuff and I know ya not agree much on them, but they are a part of me. It’s been hard on me getting through all that stuff that happened back then and loosing all of ya suddenly was pretty damn hard on me and forgiving that ya all left me it’s hard because I’m scared of letting ya in and then ya’ll just do it to me again. I don’t think any of you can ever begin to understand how lonely I’ve felt or even how hurt I’ve been and I’m not asking you to understand but I’m asking you to be patient with me. She explained while watching them listen and not saying a word.
- Your right sweetie, we might not understand it completly how you have felt. But we are all truly sorry for how we have treated you and we are back to help you and we ain’t never going anywhere again. said looking up at her before he got up on his feet and went up to hug her close.
- We say the same. said jumping to his feet pushing away so he could hug her.
Wacthing her friends now sat around the table laughing she smiled to her self and felt she was finally getting somewhere. Catching ’s gaze she went and grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the room making him kind a confused.
- What? He asked
- Well I could tell since you came the where something you wanted to ask me so spit it out no one is listning now.
- Well um it can wait. He mumbled feeling sligtly nervours.
- No it can’t, come tell me. She pleaded
- I just um, was wondring what you want with us. He said looking down
- Well I have thought about you and I did miss you.
- You did! He spat out looking straight up into her eyes making her giggle slightly.
- I did.
- I love you. He said stroking her cheek with his fingers.
- I love you too.... she replied hardly in a whisper but he heard her and his heart speeded up.
- I want you so badly. He whisped resting his forehead towards hers.
- I.. ... we gotta take it slow, I’m not ready yet... she replied making him move his head so he could look into her eyes.
- I know baby, but we can take it slow it’s fine, I just need to know if you want us together again?
- I do but be patient with me please.
- Of couse hunny. He replied not able to hold back any longer and leaned in to kiss her. Feeling her soft lips kiss him back he pulled her closer, not willing to ever let her go again.